Han had never liked the sound of the Falcon’s alarms indicating someone was approaching, especially in
the middle of the night. This particular
alarm was far more quiet and did not cause him to leap out of bed prepared to
defend himself to the death, it was only designed to make him aware that
someone was outside. Things had been calm thus far on planet, so he wasn’t particularly worried that there was an
imminent attack.
That said, when he threw on his pants and a t-shirt to greet
their visitor, he almost wished it was a bounty hunter or an Imperial
agent. At least those guys you could
just shoot and be done with it.
Leia emerged from her quarters having thrown a robe on over
her night clothes. He tried to ignore the fact that even in the middle of the night, just rolling out of bed, she still looked gorgeous.
“Who is it?” she asked, stifling a yawn.
“It looks like Ava,” Han replied as he moved to activate the
ramp.
“Ava? The counselor? What’s the doing here?”
“You think I know?”
Leia looked more annoyed than anything as he activated the
ramp and made his way to greet their unwelcome visitor. Though he supposed things could’ve been
worse. The woman looked all business, as
usual, as Han led her toward the lounge where Leia waited.
“Good evening,” she began with an apologetic look on her
face. Han and Leia were both too annoyed
to reply. “I’m very sorry to disturb
you.”
“Well, then why did you?” Han asked.
A sheepish smile crossed her face. “It’s part of the program, I’m afraid,” she
said.
“What, house calls?” Han was growing tired of jumping
through all of these hoops just to divorce a woman he didn’t even remember
marrying. Leia had her arms crossed
against her chest, clearly as annoyed as he was.
Ava nodded. “In a
manner of speaking.”
“Seems like an awful lot of trouble to go through. You ever get any sleep?” Han asked.
“Well, to be honest, I don’t visit everyone. Only the couples I really think can turn
things around.”
Han had no reply for that.
So, now they were at the top of the class? All this time he thought it would be so easy
to make it apparent that they didn’t
belong together. He had entertained the
idea of staying married to Leia, but it was all pretty much just a
fantasy. She’d made it very clear that
she didn’t want him. He was going to
have to have a chat with her in the morning about stepping up their arguing for the remainder of the program.
“And what makes you think we can turn things around?” Leia
asked, still standing in the corner, leaning casually against the wall.
Ava smiled. “Look,
I’ve been doing this for a long time.
I’ve gotten pretty good at being able to tell which couples belong
together and which ones don’t. For
example, I will not bother going to see Lohree and Kabe.”
Leia rolled her eyes.
“I’m not sure that knowing they have no business staying together
requires one being particularly insightful.”
Ava laughed at that.
“No, I suppose not. But, please,
can we just sit down? The quicker we
start talking, the quicker you two can get back to sleep. Or I suppose doing whatever it is you were
doing,” she added a bit hopefully.
“Sleeping,” Leia said insistently as she moved over toward
the holochess table to sit down.
The three sat down at the table, Han next to Leia and Ava
across from them, though Han noted that Leia went out of her way to keep from
touching him.
“I do apologize for showing up in the middle of the night,
but you have to understand that here on Azterri we take the vows
of marriage very seriously. We don’t
like to see couples just give up on a good thing. I don’t like to waste any chance to get a
couple to see that they could be very happy together.”
Han reached up and rubbed his temples. Being married to Leia thus far had been
nothing but one giant headache. “All
right,” he said. “Then let’s get on with
it.”
“Thank you,” Ava replied, pulling out her data pad and
looking back and forth between Han and Leia.
“Now, let’s get the uncomfortable stuff out of the way first. I gave you two an assignment. Have you completed it?”
It took Han a moment to realize what she was talking
about. For a second he felt like a small
boy who had forgotten to do his homework.
Then he remembered that the entire point of this whole thing was, in
fact, to fail. So perhaps not completing
assignments was actually in their best interest. Then he remembered the assignment in question
as he looked to Leia and saw her eyes widen.
“Uh, no,” he said, not really having to pretend to be
disappointed.
“May I ask why not?”
Han shrugged. “Look,
we’ve just been really distant. And
she’s definitely not interested. I couldn't even tell you the last time we did it.” Actually, I could tell you it's been exactly never.
Ava appeared disappointed.
“Well, have you at least been sleeping in the same bed?”
Leia shook her head and Han answered. “Nah, there’s no point.”
“I do wish you’d reconsider,” Ava said.
Han gave her a mock smile.
“We’ll take it under consideration.”
Leaning forward, Ava looked imploringly at the couple. “Look, you two clearly care for one another.”
Leia’s irritated voice interrupted. “What makes you say that?”
The woman smiled.
“I’ve been doing this for a very long time, and I can tell.”
“Well, your intuition is faulty this time,” Leia said with
her eyebrow raised.
“I doubt that,” Ava answered. “And to help things along, Leia, I’d like you
to look at your husband and tell him some things that drew you to him.”
Now things were getting interesting. Leia’s brown eyes turned to him, and he found
himself profoundly curious as to what she might have to say, though she
remained silent, her mouth slightly agape.
“Come on, now,” Ava prompted. “You wouldn’t be in this position at all if
you never saw anything in him.
She took a deep breath then, and Han thought he detected her
shaking a little. He never thought it
would be so difficult to get her to admit anything that she liked about him.
“Well,” Leia began, “he is an incredibly talented pilot.
Han frowned, annoyed that she appeared to be taking the easy
way out. Even Luke could appreciate
Han’s piloting skills. Surely she had to
like something else about him.
“All right,” Ava said, “that’s a start. But that’s not really a reason to marry
someone, is it? I think you can do
better than that.”
Her eyes were on his again, and he found himself captivated
by them. In an instant he was
brought back to that night that had brought them here, and the look in her eyes
when she gazed at him adoringly. What
would it be like if she always looked at him that way?
“Okay,” Leia began.
“I suppose he’s very brave.”
Well, that was a little better, Han thought. “Good,” Ava said. “What else?”
“He's.... tall."
Ava smirked. "Well, that's something, I guess, but I think you can still do better.
"He’s very loyal.
He’d do anything to help his friends. He's much more caring than you'd think.”
“These are all important qualities,” Ava said. “Anything else?”
Leia shrugged. “Well,
I suppose he also makes me feel safe.
Protected.”
“Excellent,” Ava said.
Han felt a surge of relief that Leia did, in fact, notice some of his
better qualities. He wondered if she
knew just how far he’d go to protect her.
“Now, Han, I want you to tell your wife some of the
qualities that drew you to her.”
This he was not expecting.
But at this point he had nothing to lose. He turned to look at her, finding her arms
still tightly wrapped across her chest as though trying to shield herself from
any possible emotion. He didn’t even
know where to begin. “Well,” he started,
pausing to clear his throat. “She’s an
incredibly strong woman. And she’s got a
hell of a personality.”
“All right,” Ava interjected. “That’s a good start. What else?”
“She’s got a great sense of humor. At least when she lets herself smile,” he
added, watching Leia give him a bemused look.
“She’s one of the smartest women I’ve ever met,” he added
sincerely.
“These are all important qualities,” Ava interjected. “Anything else?”
He looked down at his hands for a moment, clasped in front
of him as he absently played with his fingers.
Bringing his eyes back up to her face, he was reminded of all of those
times he’d looked at her and thought of the things he could’ve said but never
did. The words finally spilled out of him. “I thought she was the most beautiful woman
I’d ever met. I couldn’t stop thinking
about her. I just wanted to be around
her all the time.”
He saw her face shift from annoyance into what could only be
described as shock and he suddenly realized what he’d just said. He hoped that once Ava left he could just
describe it as part of the act. But he
wasn’t sure that he wanted her to believe that.
His eye contact with Leia was broken by the startling voice
of the counselor he had forgotten was even there. “Excellent!
See? I knew you two had something
special. It’s the couples who never felt
anything for each other that we have to worry about. I want you to think about those
feelings. Think about the good times and
what has changed between then and now. Often
times we are simply blinded by outside forces and we can’t see things
anymore. What you felt once can be felt
again. You just need to allow yourselves
to feel. I get the sense that you two
are trying very hard not to give into these feelings. Only you can figure out why. But I do want you to consider that.”
Han felt like he’d been punched in the gut. Gods, why didn’t he leave the Rebellion
months ago? It was causing him nothing
but heartache.
“I’ll leave you two alone now,” Ava said as she stood to
leave. “But keep in mind what you’ve
just said. You two are quite well
matched. I do hope you’ll come around. I’ll see myself out,” she said, disappearing
around the corner and down the ramp.
Han silently moved to close things down again, turning to
see Leia still seated at the table, staring at the ground.
The silence was deafening, and he couldn’t stand not saying
anything. “So, what do we do now?”
He really had no idea.
Part of him wanted to just pack up their things and flee. They could deal with all of this some other
time. Another part of him wanted to take
her face in his hands and kiss her, showing her just how much he meant
everything he’d just said.
She looked up at him, and his heart sank when he saw what
looked like fear in her eyes. Damn it,
what was she so afraid of?
“I’ll see you in the morning,” she said as she stalked off
to her quarters without another word.
Han had to actively fight to keep from punching something
critical on his ship. What just happened, here?
Glad you figured out who there visitor was. :) I liked this a lot. You really started turning the screws on them and funny that they are doing well instead of screwing everything up. Han's confession was great. Really liked that. Good line about him wanting to grab her, kiss her, and show her how much he had meant what he had said. Sadly, I figured Leia was going to mess things up. :(
ReplyDeleteYou're making my heart hurt. This was beautifully done, and painful as hell.
ReplyDeleteGreat chapter. Oh, Leia...
ReplyDeleteOh, that floored me. I'm totally with Han, though! I had to restrain myself from throwing my laptop across the room. From excitement, of course, not cause Leia wont allow herself to love me etc etc.
ReplyDeleteLoved the flow of this, Han's thoughts are always my favourite. I do love Leia, but Han always seems more sure of himself and that helps me deal with the angst, hehe. Can these two ever be in sync?!
I love this story more and more with each chapter I read!! But come on leia you know you want Han :p.
ReplyDeleteIf I had a councellor turn up at my house in the middle of the night I'd be seriously annoyed and I think they took it rather. Looking forward to next chapter
Ashlee
Nicely done.
ReplyDeleteWhat a great way to start my sunday morning! Love that line: "I get the sense that you two are trying very hard not to give into these feelings. Only you can figure out why." I have to admit that is my favorite thing about reading about these two: them fighting so hard against how they really feel about each other. Great update! ;)
ReplyDeleteAnother very good and frustrating chapter! If I ever meet Han Solo the first thing I'll tell him is: whenever there is two choices, always pick "grab her by the face and kiss her". :-)
ReplyDeleteI love how you keep forcing these feelings to the surface. I mean, eventually something's gotta give, right? Maybe it's time for Han to stick the "If this ship's a rockin', don't come a knockin'" sign on the Falcon...
Lol! I agree on both points Push. I'm sure him following your first point will lead to the second. :) Oh, if only...
DeleteWe had been discussing how much longer we could drag this out. Turns out quite a bit ;) We also find it kind of crazy that this story is about to surpass the other one in chapters and in the other one they had to re-defeat the Empire. Rest assured, this will be the last joint story!
ReplyDeleteBut anyway, glad you guys enjoyed this. I liked writing it and when she said someone had shown up, I wasn't sure what to do with it at first but I wanted some more feelings to come out rather than adding in the complication of a bounty hunter or something. Glad you liked it, even if it continues to be frustrating :)
Oh, definitely enjoyed! Keep dragging it on. :) But I am still curious why they were drugged the night they got married.
DeleteThe last joint story? Now I'm bummed. :(
I have to agree. No more joint stories?? Say it ain't so? You are so good at this.
DeleteI love how Ava can see just how perfect they are for each other, and she doesn't want to give up on them.
ReplyDeleteI was dying for Leia to mention, when she was listing what drew her to him, how he's got the most perfect butt...I bet she was thinking it. ;)
Love the bit about grabbing her face and kissing her...and I hope he's going to do just that really soon. And his confession about her being the most beautiful woman he's ever seen was so sweet.
Great chapter, Zyra.
Excellent I really like this story. I can't remember does Leia know they didn't sleep together?
ReplyDeleteYes, she knows. :-)
DeleteOh wow! I admit I wasn't totally buying the late-night therapist visit, but as soon as Han laid down his confession, I was there. Love it!
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