Just a little reminder that there is no time limit for any of our challenges and you can submit them at any time. With that, here is a response to the old "Confessions" challenge submitted by Zolo77. Enjoy!
Demons
- by Zolo77
Han awoke with a start, disoriented.
Taking in his surroundings he remembered
being on board Home One, in one of the Officers Cabins. That in itself
was a strange occurrence, and one of complete coincidence. He had been staying
in the Upper Starboard hanger on-board the Falcon but with the repair
list building into something out of a nightmare, and the heating system kicking
in and turning off without notice or instruction over the last week, it was
becoming harder to stand in his beloved ship, let alone sleep. Rieekan had
pulled the list of available rooms late that evening and found him this one to
make use of until the repairs were in order - or indefinitely, if he would sign
his name to this mismatched band of rebels.
He lifted a hand to rub his eyes, annoyed
and disturbed as to why he was woken so suddenly. Strange, he was shaking.
Noticing also for the first time that his breathing had accelerated and the bare
skin of his chest reacted chillingly to the darkness in the room. Adrenaline ran
rampant through his system for reasons still unknown. He couldn't remember a
dream which would have woken him.
A blood curdling scream ripped through him
in an instant, and before his brain registered what what happening, he had
leaped out of bed, and was standing in the hallway searching for the source of
the noise; dressed solely in sleep pants, blaster in hand. This stretch of rooms
was, to his knowledge, completely deserted. Extra space and miscellaneous
offices used to hold medical and emergency food supplies.
As with everything in the Rebellion, the sleeping quarters on board this half of the ship were subject to power loss and malfunctioning equipment. But who was he to throw stones at that? He has a menopausal ship on his hands at the moment, and no idea how to treat her.
The doors in front of him all registered
green, signalling the lock was not engaged and open.
In the silence he waited. But he did not
need to wait long. Another scream rang out from behind him. A woman's scream,
followed by begs of mercy and pleas to stop.
Han spun and launched him at the door,
opening it and slamming his fist into the lighting panel inside, blaster aimed
at the far side of the room, slamming his fist again into the wall. "Get off of
her!" He bellowed, and was this time rewarded with a night-setting glow across
the ceiling. "Hey!" He yelled again as the crying and begging continued. "I
said, GET OFF of her!" Nothing changed, no one stood. No one told him to leave
and to mind his own damn business. But still the muffled sobs went on. "What
the-" The small form huddled on the bed half covered by a thick twisted blanket
was alone. It was Leia. Curled into a ball, crying and facing away from him,
shoulders hunched in on herself, legs kicking in small strained bursts.
Oh Gods, Leia.
He knew, both from general knowledge and from first hand experience, you should never try to wake someone in the throws of a night-terror. But as he stood above her, watching helplessly as she shook and mumbled incoherently, he knew it would take more strength than he had to walk away. How could he leave her to her horrors? Leave her locked in a world that was hurting her and not help, not step in and save her when he had the opportunity.
Just then she arched back, panting and screamed.
"Leia! Leia! Please, Leia. Wake up! Damn it! Leia, please wake up. It's alright, I have you. Leia." Kneeling beside her, half on the small bed, he swept a hand up her arm to her shoulder, continuing quickly passed her neck and finally stopped at the head, cupping the back of her head. "Leia."
Her eyes sprang open, wild and terrified. He called her name again: still unfocused. "Leia, it's me. I'm here, I have you, you're safe."
"Han?" she rasped, gasping and shaking. He gathered her to him before he even registered that he was doing it, and held her. Her hair was matted, the back of the camisole she wore clung to her, drenched in sweat and freezing cold. Moving he sat further in on the bed, clutching her to him like a lifeline as her body racking sobs quieted and her breather normalized.
"I'm sorry I disturbed you. I'm alright now. Thank you."
"Disturbed me?" he repeated, not moving and not letting her go. "Sweetheart, you didn't disturb me, I thought you were being attacked. You kept screaming "stop" and "please". Leia, what's going on? Have you had dreams like this before?"
She sat silently for a moment longer, before nodding. "Occasionally."
"How often is occasionally?" answering with shrug she let out another large shaky breath. "It matters, tell me."
"All the time," her voice was barely above a whisper. Han sat stunned. How was it that she had nights like this all the time, and he had no idea. no one did as far as he could tell. No one mentioned it at least. And obviously no one had tried to help her.
"Wait, is that why you've changed rooms?"
"Yes. And how do you know where my old room was?" He smiled at that. That seemed more the woman he knew, not the scared creature in his arms now. But the quick witted, sharp-tongued fiery beauty who haunted him every moment of every day.
"Oh, I have my ways and my reasons. So you moved so no one would hear you?"
"Yes, I didn't realize there was anyone else in the part of the ship."
"Well, there wasn't, I'm here provisionally. And I'm glad I was. You need to talk to someone Leia. Is there anything you can take that would help?"
"I did talk to a medic when I first started getting them, he gave me a sleepaid. But that made me groggy and they didn't stop, the only difference was that I couldn't wake myself up from them at all."
"Shit."
"I'm sorry for waking you."
"Don't start with that. I'm just glad I was here. Look," he shifted her so he could better watch her face. Realizing for the first time that she was nearly as half naked as he was, and in any other situation, he would have made a comment on it, in hopes of making her blush. But that was overshadowed now. She was hurting. And worst of all, he didn't know how to help her. "How long have these been happening to you?"
Leia swallowed and tried to sit back, he kept her in place by hugging her tighter and murmuring into her hair. Reluctantly she relaxed again and after a pause she answered. "I've had them ever since you met me. It's all Death Star / Alderaan related. It's all fairly horrid."
"I'm going on a supply run in a few days, I wont be gone long, but can I look for something that might help? I'll look into it, make a few inquires while I'm planet-side."
Leia looked up at him, and swallowed.
"Okay, thank you. I'm going to try to get some sleep, and you should too. I'll
be alright." She pushed away from him again and he let her. Standing he moved
away from her back towards the door, stooping to pick up his discarded blaster
from where he had hurled it on the desk.
"Han," he stopped and turned back to her,
she was bundled in the blanket, long dark hair framing her face. "Thank you. But
please, please don't tell anyone."
"I won't. You have my word. Does anyone
else but me know know about this?"
"Thank you, I would hate to be known as the
orphaned princess who has nightmares." she smiled shakily trying to lighten the
mood. "And yes, well, you and Carlist. He knows too, and I made him promise not
to tell anyone."
Han nodded and smiled to her. Without
another word, he walked out and quietly shut the door behind him.
A young woman who had slid so completely into his life.
Thanks for the submission! And again, anyone interested in contributing is always free to contact us!
Great comfort story! I loved the description of the 'menopausal ship,' made me laugh out loud. I like the way Han comforts her; he doesn't deny her feelings, he does all he can to keep her comfortable physically, and I suspect he will be around to comfort her again as they are both in that rarefied part of the ship. I think that at this point in their 'relationship,' just knowing Han is close by might bring Leia comfort. He might be a smartass, but he knows how to keep a confidence.
ReplyDeleteOverall I liked it very much. "menopausal ship" may become one of my new favorite sayings. A few small typo/grammar errors that the editor in me couldn't ignore but over all very fluid. Kudos again.
ReplyDeleteI'm going to have to agree that the "menopausal ship" line was genius.
ReplyDeleteI liked this a lot. It's sort of further evidence why in reality it would kind of suck to be Leia. I mean, your entire planet explodes? The second most evil man ever is your dad? Chained to a Hutt? Ouch. But I liked the way you handled this and how Han goes to her and he knows he shouldn't wake her but he can't leave her like that. And I also always enjoy when he knows which moments not to tease her and he promises not to let anyone know what's going on, and her trusting him and letting him in for this moment even if she's a little embarrassed. I thought you captured their relationship during this time period nicely.
I'll agree with the Leia's life sucking conclusion only up until she lands han. After that, I think her life would be pretty darn good.
DeleteAnd thank you! I always thought of the Falcon as Han's cranky cougar.
:)
I'm working on my angsty-goodness story right now. Which I shouldn't be doing. I should be sleeping. Oh well. :)
pssst!
ReplyDeletedid anybody catch the sneaky move Carlist pulled here??
anybody?
I did! And I liked it. I think Carlist Riekkan sees them as a couple long before they see it themselves. He may not like Han's flippant mouth, but I think there's a lot of mutual respect between the two.
ReplyDeleteAww, I liked this. Even before they're together…..aw, Han's a good guy. :-)
ReplyDeleteGreat story! I have a soft spot for stories between ANH and ESB. It was really nice to read it this morning. :)
ReplyDeleteThis is one of the best fanfictions I've read for a long, long time. I love the fact that Han shows his softer side and Leia's fine with it... thank you, againxxx
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AWW! Thanks!!
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You posted this at ff.net, right Zolo? I remember reading it and enjoying it immensely. Han is so adorable, and it's very clear that even this early on he really does care a lot for her. Bet those nightmares aren't quite as bad with a scoundrel to help her through :)Your characterisation as always, is spot on with these two.
ReplyDeleteI did! I forgot to send it in to Zyra for posting on here tho, oops! lol
DeleteI actually sat down to write something cute and fluffy and fun for my confessional story challenge, but this is what came out. :)
I'm glad you liked it!
I have a new one-shot in the works now, but... it's a bit sad and angsty. I'm rather proud of it tho, which doesn't really make any sense...
I'm sure it will be great! But it has a happy ending though, right?
Deleteoh dear. I'm not sure if it will. Im not finished it quite yet - I was distracted by Jax last night (SOA, anyone?) but I plan on writing more tonight. It's cannon - so it will technically be okay in the end... does that count??
DeleteLove it! Nicely written. I can really see that Han would be this caring and comforting when Leia would in a situation like that.
ReplyDeleteSo, as you might have noticed, I'm kind of new here, or at least new as actually commenting. I've followed this blog for long but for some reason I have stayed away from commenting.
Now, I was just going to tell you that I have posted my first fanfiction ever. I know you guys write so well (and the story is actually a little based upon one of Zyra's stories - I really hope you don't mind) and I was wondering if maybe you all would like the check it out. Just so I know if it is good/awful. I apologize if there are grammar mistakes; English is not my first language. I also warn you it is rated M. And as I don't really discuss these things with other people it's a little embarrassing for me to post an M-rated story for other people to read about my.. imaginations. But here is the link: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10032358/1/You-Make-Me )
Anyways, love the blog and loved this story! Hope you check my story out as well (though it is not in the confession challenge).
Thanks and welcome!
DeleteWe love new people!
I'm heading over right now to check this out!
I'm glad you liked this. :)
You wrote a very nice story! Very impressive first fic :)
DeleteThank you so much! I'm glad to hear that.
DeleteVery nice read. Even if not happy material, still very sweet. I do like how you characterize our favorite couple. I like how Han jumps in to help her and comforts her. I could see him being so protective of her.
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