“Uh oh, what’d I miss?”
Leia heard her husband’s voice from behind her just as she
finished closing the door to their children’s bedroom. It had been a trying
day, to say the least.
Normally having Han return home would instantly ease any
stress she was feeling. But on this particular evening, their three kids had
decided to become complete terrors. And the effects of dealing with them were
going to take more than a strong hug from Han to disappear.
She leaned her forehead on hernarm against the wall and
heaved a sigh. “How much do you think we could get for them?”
“Huh?”
Her voice was slightly muffled but she knew he heard what
she’d said. She turned to him and continued. “I mean if we sold them, they’re
probably pretty valuable, right? I mean, Force-sensitive, strong Corellian
genes, rare Alderaanian heritage…”
Han gave her a half-smile. “That bad today, huh?”
She shook her head and took a few long strides before
collapsing on the couch in the living room. “Do you remember that time we took
them to Mon Calamari? And we made the mistake of trying to take them out to
dinner before they had a chance to adjust to the local time?”
Han thought back for a moment and then had to smile in spite
of what was far from a pleasant memory. The incident Leia was referring to had
taken place about a year-and-a-half prior. Now, their kids were not perfect by
any means. But they were generally good kids. Except, of course, when they got
especially tired or hungry. And gods help you if you got a strong combination
of both. They had wanted to have a nice family dinner, and it turned into
shouting matches from everyone, throwing of food, and ultimately having to drag
everyone out of the restaurant after causing quite a scene. The twins were five
at the time, and Anakin was three. And Han and Leia vowed to never make a
similar mistake again.
“No, it wasn’t that bad, was it?” Han said as he moved to
sit next to her on the couch.
She looked at him briefly and then down at her hands in her
lap. “Well, no. Definitely not quite that bad. But they were at each other’s
throats all afternoon. Just shouting and arguing and even some hitting. I
couldn’t take it anymore. I had to yell, too.”
He wrapped an arm around her shoulders and pulled her close.
“It happens, sweetheart. They probably just need some sleep.”
She leaned her head against his chest and heaved a sigh. “I
feel like a terrible mother. I made Anakin cry when I yelled at him.”
Han kissed her forehead. “He’ll be all right, sweetheart. We
all have bad days sometimes. I’m sure when it’s time to put them to bed they’ll
just want to hear their stories.”
“Maybe,” she replied, unconvinced.
After a few moments of silence, just as Leia was starting to
really settle into Han’s embrace, he abruptly released her and got up.
“Where are you going? I wasn’t finished with you.”
“Just wait there a minute, I’ve got something I think you’ll
like.”
Leia scowled as he disappeared toward their bedroom. She did
not feel as though he would so easily fix her sour mood.
A few moments later Han sauntered back into the room with a small, wrapped box that he held out for her.
“What is it?”
“Maybe you should open it and find out.”
She wasn’t really in the mood for games but she snatched it
out of his grip and began to unwrap the paper while Han sat down next to her.
“It’s a holocube,” she said as she held it up in her hand.
“You’ve always been so observant,” Han quipped; his low,
gentle voice rumbling in her ear. “Take a look at what’s on it.”
Using her thumb, Leia flicked the switch to activate the
images. The first thing she saw was an image of her holding the twins, looking down at them and smiling. It had
to have been the day they were born because they were still in the med center.
The image shifted to another one, this time she was holding
Jacen in her arms above her head, smiling at him while he smiled back at her.
Next was an image of her walking away from the holorecorder through
the grass holding the hands of both of the twins, one on either side of her
walking next to her.
The images kept coming, one after another. Swimming with
Anakin, giving the twins a bath, lying on the couch under all three of them.
Even an image of her asleep on her bed with baby Anakin conked out right next
to her.
As the images went by she realized that somehow she had
never seen any of them before. They had plenty of family holos from over the
years of their family, but none of these seemed familiar. And she also realized
that not one of them appeared as though she or the kids had posed for it.
“Where did all of these come from?”
“Well,” Han began, “I’ve been taking these for a few years.
I was going to give this to you for your birthday next week, but you seem like
you needed it a little sooner. I want you to see how I see you with our kids.
And just look at the way they’re looking at you in some of these. Doesn’t look
like they think they have a terrible mother.”
Leia felt her eyes welling up, and she turned to face her
husband who was looking at her sweetly. “You’re unbelievable,” she said as she
leaned in and held him close, his arms wrapping around her
tightly.
“I know,” he laughed.
After a few moments of just savoring the feel of Han’s
embrace, Leia heard Anakin’s voice from behind her. “Mommy?”
She pulled away from Han and quickly wiped her eyes before
she turned around to see her youngest son who had an almost pitiful look on his
face. “What is it, honey?”
The boy took a few steps closer until he could almost touch
her and hesitated again before answering. “I’m sorry,” he said sweetly, his
bright blue eyes looking up at her and asking for forgiveness.
Leia’s heart almost melted and she reached down and pulled
her four-year-old son into her lap so she could hug him. “It’s all right, baby,”
she said as she held him close. She could tell his little arms were squeezing
her with every ounce of strength he had. “I just need you three to behave a
little bit better for Mommy, all right?”
She felt him nod against her shoulder and she leaned back to
give him a quick kiss. “I love you,” she said.
“I love you, too, Mommy,” he replied with a smile.
“No more giving Mommy any trouble, right?” Han said from
next to them.
Anakin shook his head and smiled at his father. “No, Daddy.”
“Good, now c’mere,” Han said as he stretched his arms open
and Anakin crawled across Leia’s lap to give his father a hug. “Ok, now go back
in with your brother and sister and we’ll be in in a little while, all right?”
Anakin nodded and climbed down from Han’s lap before running
back to his bedroom.
“See? They think you’re the greatest. And so do I.”
Leia shook her head at him. “I don’t know how you do it.”
He appeared confused. “Do what?”
“Well, a lot of things. But in this case I was thinking
about how you’re always so sure that everything will be fine. Or how you always
seem to come up with the most perfect thing at the most perfect time,” she said
as she held up the holocube. “I can’t believe you did this. Are you ever going
to run out of ways to surprise me?”
He shook his head and smiled. “Nope.”
She leaned in and hugged him again. “I better be careful or
you’re going to completely outdo me when it comes to being a wonderful spouse.”
“Not a chance, sweetheart. I think you’re doing a much
better job than you think you are.” He paused for a few moments and then asked,
“So do you still want to sell the kids to the highest bidder?”
She laughed against his chest and then leaned back to look
at him. “No. But maybe we can just rent them out for a week or two?”
“That’s more like it.”
This is a wonderful piece, Leia being able to view her children and her relationships with them from Han's point of view. As mothers, we tend to be intensely self-critical, and we don't see ourselves the way our kids and spouses do. Nicely done.
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DeleteSo glad you stuck with it, even though this one proved tough, because it's just lovely. The frustration, the humor, the self-awareness ("I had to yell, too"), the being there for one another. This is such a real moment of mother/parenthood. And the holocube of unfamiliar photos is just so sweet. Like StatsGrandma said, we don't see ourselves the way our family members do, and the sight of those images must have been so precious. Very lovely piece.
ReplyDeleteThanks! I've had writers block for months so it was nice to finally just shut my mind up and write and not worry about what came out of it. I liked the idea of her getting to see herself from his perspective, so I'm glad you liked it as well.
Deleteawww it was so sweet! Anakin was my favorite Solo kid
ReplyDeleteReally liked this! Especially liked this sentence:
ReplyDelete“I mean if we sold them, they’re probably pretty valuable, right? I mean, Force-sensitive, strong Corellian genes, rare Alderaanian heritage…”
as it showed a continued growth of Leia's character into this EU-ish world. She wouldn't have allowed herself to voice a comment like this to anyone at the beginning of ANH, but I can see her saying it to Han by the end of ROTJ, and I can definitely see it as something that comes out of her mouth as a parent.
Really lovely read. I'm all for sappy, and good work on the gift, Han.
Thanks! I really like giving Leia the opportunity to be funny, and I think like Carrie she would resort to humor to help in tough situations. Glad you liked it!
DeleteThis was sweet, adorable, and realistic. I don't care how great your kids are, sometimes they will drive you to the edge lol. I really enjoyed seeing leia as an average mother, losing her patience, doubting herself, being human. And han's gift was the best thing ever! Great job!
ReplyDeleteThank you. I decided I needed something where things weren't all rainbows and unicorns, just this once. I think Leia would be pretty hard on herself at times, and Han would be the one to always step in and tell her not to worry so much. Glad you liked it!
DeleteLeia would be one to take motherhood always seriously. She's so aware of the precariousness of relationships and the far reaching consequences of a misstep, and the responsibility of being a parent is just as huge as being princess of a planet. I love Han's gift, the candid moments of interaction she's barely aware of.
ReplyDeleteAgreed, I think she would too. And I think she would have a hard time realizing that occasionally making mistakes would not ruin her children ;) The gift was what came to me first for some reason, I'm glad you liked that idea.
DeleteWhat a sweet gift from Han! I love the concept of this story; that Leia sometimes struggles to manage her kids the way any mother does; that she feels terrible when she loses her temper, shouts and makes one of them cry; that Han is there for her, even in that moment. It's so lovely that he chose a birthday gift for her that centres on their children, the most precious things in the galaxy to both of them. Sweet, sweet story.
ReplyDeleteThank you, I'm glad you liked it :) I'm glad you agree that Leia would struggle at moments like that. And Han would always be there to bring help her feel better.
DeleteI know the feeling of beating your head against a story and it's ARGH!
ReplyDeleteSo glad you persevered - loved this little slice of life, especially Han's holocube. And the line about selling them!! Perfect!
I think both of them might occasionally wonder what they could sell them for ;) Thanks, glad you liked it!
DeleteAnd as a side note, apparently we've made Mother's Day stretch through Father's Day and haven't had a regular post in a while. I've got one more of these (as of now, of course anyone can still submit one) and then I've got a regular post ready to go up for some discussion. Hopefully people are still interested in some discussions!
ReplyDeleteI don't know what to add to what everyone else said: I loved this moment of seeing Leia both overwhelmed and guilty by the duties of parenthood, her dry humour that Han is unfazed by, his gift and reminder of what a wonderful mother she is, and in turn, Leia's reminder of what a good husband and father he is too, and Anakin coming back to say sorry. Adorable!!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry I've been MIA; I've been reading the entries as well as some other fics here and there but been feeling a little off to review (but I will, soon!) I've been working on a fic for this challenge, and I didn't want to make any promises, but now it's close to being done! I just don't know if it fits because there are no kids actually involved... Very interested in a new discussion, too!
Hey, I was just wondering where you'd been. Welcome back. There have been other responses where Leia didn't actually have kids, so you can tell the "rules" are pretty lax on this one ;)
DeleteAnd thank you, I'm glad you enjoyed it!
Aw, I love the sappiness! This is exactly how I imagine Han & Leia supporting each other through tough days and trying times. And that holocube is extra special because I think a lot of moms don't have that many pics that they're in with their kids. Leia seemed fittingly touched by it.
ReplyDeleteThanks! And so true, there are like, no pictures of my mom with any of us, and not a whole lot of my dad with any of us either. Basically just us, haha. I'm glad you liked it!
DeleteThis was all kinds of wonderful! First, I always love seeing the Solo kids and, even better, happy moments of them with their wonderful mom! I have to agree with Jenny about the holocube- I think that was my favorite part. My mother always refused to be in any pictures, I think it's extra sweet that Han has been building a collection of holos of his wife being an active and loving mom with their children whom they love even when they're little rancors. (I grew up with three younger siblings. This felt very familiar. ;) Very cute little story!
ReplyDeleteThank you, I'm glad you liked it :) As much as we like thinking of the Solo kids as sweet little angels, I'm sure they spent some time being terrible. Because every kid goes through those phases of being terrible! But I liked the idea of all these images of Leia and her kids being happy together, and clearly not posing for it. So I'm glad you liked that.
DeleteWhat a wonderful story. Such a thoughtful gift...to see herself through Han's eyes, at a time when the challenge of motherhood has left her feeling a bit beaten up. I love Leia's humour in this: “I better be careful or you’re going to completely outdo me when it comes to being a wonderful spouse.” So cute. Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteIf this is sap, then bring it on. I love it. Motherhood is so hard sometimes, and this just made Leia feel so real. Han is her comfort and grounding. Yes. Sweet little Anakin. The end is great, just rent them out for a week or two! A perfect solution. :)
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