Tuesday, December 4, 2012

The New Rebellion: The Review


Remember these?  I know, we're terrible.  Truth be told, I read this book in April and had the review partly written back then before our reviews came to a screeching halt.  But I do hope that we can get back on track at least somewhat.  So here we go:

Next up in the EU is a favorite of mine: The New Rebellion. I know we all bash the EU quite a bit but I guess I'm a bit surprised as we go through it again to be reminded that there really were quite a few books I genuinely liked, and this one is high on that list. This might surprise you when I tell you that Han and Leia really aren't together very much. But there just don't seem to be that many crappy chapters I mostly want to just scan over to get to the good parts. Everyone has their own interesting story line going on, which is why this was probably at least the third time I've read this one.

The story basically opens with Luke feeling a great disturbance in the Force. He feels as though millions of lives have just been taken out and he fears specifically for Leia's safety, although he can tell she is still alive. And at the moment, she doesn't seem to be in imminent danger as she is getting ready to address the senate. She is not happy about it, though, as a lot of ex-Imperials have recently joined up and she is very worried about what this will mean.

Leia is wearing her white senatorial robes and it seems she's going with the side buns look for old times sake. And we get a little flash that tells us that at least Han and Leia still like to joke around, Han had kissed her roughly before she left their apartments and had grinned at her. Well, Your Worship, does this mean I get to go back to being a scoundrel?

She had laughingly pushed him away...


I bet Han has a lot of fun teasing her about how she used to act around him. But this fun little memory is interrupted as Leia senses the same thing as Luke, like millions have been killed. She reaches out and senses the children at home and safe and then finds Luke who tells her that he felt the same thing and he's on his way to her. Taking only a moment to compose herself, Leia goes out to give her speech.

Then we find Han, hanging out in a shady casino, the likes of which he hasn't been to in many years. He's meeting up with an old smuggling buddy, Jarril. Apparently he wouldn't have even answered the request if it hadn't been for Leia. "She had looked like that sharp-tongued princess he'd rescued back when he'd been an equally sharp-tongued scoundrel. Sometimes he missed that part of himself more than he cared to admit."

I do think that Han would sometimes miss his old self. I don't think he would trade what he has, but who wouldn't occasionally miss being independent and free of responsibility when mired in household duties and rambunctious children? Anyway, he wants Han to go check out the Smuggler's Run and Han doesn't seem too interested, something about the "little lady" wanting him home with dinner ready when she gets there.

Before we get to the end of that conversation it cuts to the Solo kids, who are driving Threepio crazy. He thinks the Solos are indulgent parents so the children lack discipline and at least Winter understands the value of discipline. Didn't we just get over one book ago how Winter wasn't so responsible for the kids anymore? So much for that. Some random new nanny droid comes in and says she's there to replace Threepio, which causes some commotion because Winter and everyone else knows that nobody did that. Anakin shouts from the next room, "It's not my fault!" echoing one of his father's favorite phrases. But in the midst of Anakin trying to argue his way out of this and Jacen and Jaina wondering what he was thinking, all three of them seem to sense the same thing as Luke and Leia and simply begin screaming.

Back to Leia, now, she barely gets through the first sentence of her speech when there is a huge explosion in the Senate Hall. Yes, a huge explosion. And she, along with many others, winds up pretty injured with blood all over her and no sense of hearing due to the noise of the bomb. Many were killed and Leia starts trying to help those who need it.

From the casino, Han hears the explosion. At first he fears they are in imminent danger at the casina underground, but when they run outside he realizes that there has been an explosion at the palace, and he knows that Leia is in there. Just as you would expect Han to do, he takes off as fast as he can, running into the building and searching for his wife. Then he finally sees her.

Then he saw Leia, drenched in blood, her white gown, white no longer, ripped and stuck to her frame. One braid had come loose and hung down her back. The other was half-undone, her beautiful brown hair tangled and matted as it fell along her face. She had her hands beneath the secondary bumps on an unconscious Llewebum. Two guards supported its feet. She limped as she moved backward, favoring her right leg.

He goes to her to help her and she seems insistent on helping the injured rather than going to medical care. Han tries to get through to her but a medical droid tells him that she can't hear him.

"It's my fault."

"No, sweetheart, it's not."

"I let the Imperials in. I didn't fight hard enough."


Her words chilled him. "We don't know what caused this. Come on. Let me get you help."

"No," she said. "My friends are dying in there."

"You've done all you can."

"Don't be stubborn," she said.

"I'm not the one-!" He bit back the words. He couldn't stand here and argue with her. She couldn't hear. She'd win. He scooped her into his arms. She was light and warm. "You're coming with me," he said.

"I can't, Han," she said, but she didn't struggle. "I'm fine. Really."

"I don't want you to die because you don't know when to quit," he said as he stepped past the wounded.

Either her hearing was coming back or she could read lips. "I'm not going to die," she said.

His heart was pounding against his chest. He cradled her close. "Lady, I wish I were as sure of that as you are."


This is definitely the Han Solo we know and love. The one who runs to save his wife and carries her to safety.

Next we move to Luke arriving at the med center, and a visibly upset Anakin running to his uncle, followed closely by the twins.  Poor kids having to go to the hospital after their mom is almost killed, and of course they are reeling from the scary vision they had experienced, and Luke knows this.  And it becomes apparent that the children are blaming themselves for what happened to Leia.  There is a cute little moment when Jacen and Jaina share a little look and Luke wonders if he and Leia would've shared that kind of bond if they had grown up together. 

It's very sweet because Luke keeps noticing things about them that remind him of their parents. 

He [Jacen] tried to be tough, just like his father, but beneath he was one of the most sensitive hearts Luke had ever met.

And that, too, was like Han.

Aw.  Luke manages to convince the kids that it wasn't there fault (it wasn't, obviously) and then they all go in to see Leia who is recovering in the hospital bed, a little cut and bruised and still not really hearing but recovering.  Of course Han is there with her as well as Chewie and Winter.  The kids are sent home and Han promises that he will be home to tuck them in. 

The grown ups are left to discuss who they think was responsible.  Leia is convinced it was the Imperials who she never should've allowed to become part of the New Republic but Han is skeptical.  Han mentions that there might be more to see on the Smuggler's Run, and Leia is opposed to him leaving right now.  Knowing him like she does, she lays some guilt on him by telling him that the children need him.  He counters by saying that they need her, too, along with the entire New Republic who almost lost her, and in the end he convinces her to let him go. 

Leia goes to a meeting with other New Republic officials and it is decided to launch an independent investigation to find out who is behind the bombing.  She's not thrilled with this because she isn't sure that there won't be any tampering of evidence or anything like that.  And they even discuss the possibility of investigating her.  Luke goes into the Senate Hall to try and see if he can figure anything out and in the end he senses one of his old students: Brakiss. 

Now we go to Han and Leia in their bedroom, but unfortunately not doing that.  Instead they are having a serious conversation.  Leia is mostly healed but still looking pale, brushing her hair, and Han is trying to get her to let him go check out the Smuggler's Run, which she doesn't want him to do.  She accuses him of wanting to go off and play with the boys and she knows that part of his conversation with Jarill poked fun of Han having become so domesticated.  So Han just reasons with her:

"Leia," he said, "I'm useless here."

"Not useless," she said, looking at his hands protecting hers. "You're never useless, Han." He put his head against her shoulder, felt the silky smoothness of her hair against his forehead, smelled her faint perfume. He didn't know how to explain something she usually understood. He was a man of action. He needed to act.

Then she sighed. "You want to contribute." He nodded.

"And there's nothing you can do on Coruscant." He sat back on his heels. He was squeezing her hands tightly. The bristles of her brush dug into his fingertips. "I've already done what I can do, Leia..."

They discuss some more, and then:

She smiled at him then, the quirky half-smile she got when she knew she should fight with him, but didn't have the heart to.

"I'll stay if you need me," he said.

She shook her head. "I don't need anyone, you big oaf."

"I know that, Your Worship," he said, grinning. Then he let the grin fade. "But I mean it. If you need me-"

"We're better if we work as a team, Han." He knew that too. He'd been trying to say that all along.

"My only concern is the children." She slipped a hand out from underneath his, and put the brush on her dressing table. "What if the next attack is on them? What if R'yet is right? What if the attack was meant for me or my family?"

"If it was meant for you, it was meant as a warning," Han said.

"Like Jarril's visit." He nodded.

"Winter says the base at Anoth has been rebuilt. Maybe we should send them there with her."

"A visit to their babyhood homes?" He got off his haunches and stood. "Can you do without them, Leia? I'll be gone, and they'll be gone, and then you'll have the political crisis to deal with." She took a deep breath. He could see the struggle in her face. He knew how much she relied on her family, how important it all was to her.

"I'll work better if I know everyone is safe," she said. "That's why you want me to stay, isn't it?" She didn't look at him. He pulled her hair back and kissed the nape of her neck.

"I can take care of myself, Princess."

"I know," she said, still not looking at him.

"You're the one in the greatest danger. Maybe you should go with Winter and the children to Anoth." She lifted her head, finally looking at him. "I can't do that. I have duties here. I have to take the same risks as the rest of the government." He knew. He had to take risks too.

Protecting him and forcing him to remain on Coruscant would be as bad as making Leia go to Anoth.

He waited, watched the realization dawn on her face as she understood what he had done.

"You've manipulated me," she said.

He nodded.

She stood and wrapped her arms around him, pulling him close. In the last few days, she had lost weight. She felt thin and fragile. He held her tightly, knowing that more strength lay within her slender form than he would ever have. He had to trust in her abilities, just as she had to trust in his.

"Don't you wish that, just once, we could live calmly and comfortably like normal people?" Her voice was soft, almost a whisper.

"No," he said. He stepped back just far enough so that he could see her face. "Because if we had been normal people, we would never have met. Your Highness-ness." She laughed, and he kissed her. Deeply. Passionately.

As if he would never be able to kiss her again.

Top five kiss in the EU, right there, I'd say.  And just for good measure, I'll logically conclude that after that, they totally did it.  That's one of those little passages in the EU that has stuck with me since I first read it way back when this book came out.  It's nice to see them both acting like adults and having a real conversation like a real husband and wife, and they're even both being reasonable and affectionate.  And of course they both know each other so well, knowing that it will be hard for Leia without her family, and Leia saying they work better as a team but knowing sometimes it just doesn't work out that way.  Anyway, I love simple little scenes like this for them.  But, sadly, they are not together again until the end of the book.  But that doesn't mean it's not a good book. 

Now we move to Lando, who has, unfortunately, stumbled upon a very dead Jarill.  He had been killed almost right after Han left him, and then sent to orbit into space for all eternity aboard his ship, except Lando found him and gets to see the last message sent: 

CARGO DELIVERED. FIREWORKS SPECTACULAR.

It was followed shortly thereafter by another message.

SOLO KNOWS. WE CAN COUNT ON HIS INVOLVEMENT.

Lando knows this cannot be good news for Han and assumes whomever killed Jarril will be after Han next. 

We get back to Leia who is in the temporary meeting space for the Senate, and obviously very much missing her husband and children and likens the experience to those first few days after Alderaan when she was completely on her own.  She continues to deal with the new Imperial presence in the Senate and things are starting to not look so good for her and she feels like she is losing control of the situation. 

Han arrives at the Smuggler's Run with Chewie and runs into some old friends, including a beautiful woman by the name of Sinewy Ana Blue.  She seems to thoroughly enjoy teasing Han.  There's a bit of a skirmish and Han gets shot... in his ass.  It leaves a scorched hole that Ana sticks her finger into, which Han doesn't like very much. 

"Leave it alone, Blue."

"Oooh." Her grin got wider. "We are married though, aren't we? Some things have changed."

"Just my taste," he snapped, his good humor completely gone.

"From smugglers to princesses," Zeen said. "Can't argue with that." Blue drew herself to her full height, showing her slender, magnificent body to complete advantage. "Some of us don't need a pedigree to prove our worth," she said. "I've been quality from the beginning."

And she seems to love the idea of helping Han out with his wounds:

"I think we'd better tend to your wound first," Blue said with a suggestive leer.

"Lay off, Blue," Han said.

"Testy, testy." She moved ahead of them, leading the group into a thin passage that wound around Cavern 2 and led directly to Cavern 3. "You were a lot more fun when you were younger, Han."

"You weren't interested when I was younger, Blue."

"You were so naive, untested, good-hearted. I like a man with a bit more experience, Han."

"And a wife," Zeen said.

She continues to relentlessly tease him, even after they go on to get something to eat.  Han, being the one-woman man that he is, never gives in.

Still treat your wife to candlelight dinners, Solo?"

"Of course," Han said. "The rewards are worth it." He winked, then sauntered to the med station.

Yep, I bet he gets some nice rewards for that.  And I'm sure he wishes Leia was around to tend to the wound on his ass. 

But Leia is back at home, and definitely missing him:

Leia sprawled on the center of her bed, flimsies spread before her. She wore an old pair of fighting pants, and one of Han's shirts. Her hair was loose except for two braids in front to keep it from falling in her eyes.

The bed, a large, soft mattress, piled high with pillows and blankets, was the safest place in their quarters. She and Han spent much time in the chamber, and she felt his presence strongly there. No one else came into the room without invitation, not even the children.

Sometimes she felt as though it was the only place she could be herself.

On this afternoon, she was there because it was the only place she could be completely alone and undisturbed. She also felt that she needed Han's presence, however superficially, while she studied the hard copies in front of her.

There is just so much to like about this passage here.  I love the image of Leia wearing Han's shirt of course, and the idea that their bed is the safest place she knows, though surely it's more fun when Han is in it, too!  I love that it was basically the only place she felt like she could be herself, of course insinuating that Han was the only one she could open up to completely.  And that she needed his presence to give her strength in these difficult times.  It all just gives me warm, fuzzy feelings.  See, I told you that even though they are apart in so much of this book it's still pretty good.

Unfortunately, she was looking through the election results and it seemed that suddenly former Imperials held the majority in the Senate, which was not good news.  Leia's private stewing is interrupted by the house computer, which speaks in Han's voice - something it was not meant to do but it is apparent that Anakin had reprogrammed it, as just another little nod to the children being both intelligent and mischievous - and Lando has come to see her. 

Leia is immediately suspicious as he doesn't try to hit on her at all, and he voices his concerns about Han and tells her about the message.  He hadn't been able to get through to her.  Funny how in the galaxy far, far away they can travel faster than the speed of light across all kinds of planets but nobody can make a phone call, even though us lowly Earthlings can use the internet from our tiny phones wherever we are.  Anyway, Lando decides he's going to the Smuggler's Run to warn Han.  Again, because apparently communications are just really, really crappy in their universe.  And because the Smuggler's Run is really difficult to navigate. 


So Han is, predictably, facing his own issues.  People are always out to get him, and he encounters one of them: 

"I rarely make such a serious oversight, General Solo." The Glottalphib smiled, and as it did, a tiny lick of flame emerged from its nostril. "My name is lisner. I work for Nandreeson. He's heard that the concubine of the great Princess Leia is on the Run, and he would like to meet you."

Han's finger edged toward the trigger. The comment was supposed to make him angry. He knew that. And he was even angrier that it had. "I'm no one's concubine," he said, unable to stop himself.

Chewie growled a warning.

"I'm her husband."

For some reason I always enjoy it when anyone references Han as Leia's concubine.  Unfortunately, Leia's concubine is about to get in some trouble.  Leia is called into a meeting, purposely informed so last minute that she has no choice but to arrive late.  It seems the results of the preliminary investigation on the Senate bombing are in, and they are wondering exactly where Han is.  They start asking questions about his past and having worked on the Smuggler's Run and of course Leia defends him, saying that he has not been judged for his past and he shouldn't be now. 

The chill in Leia's hands moved up her arms. She knew where this was going. She didn't want it to go in that direction, but she knew. She knew.

"You'd better have a point," C-Gosf said. "General Solo is a hero of the Republic."

"My point is simple," Meido said. "General Solo is behind the bombing of the Senate Hall." Leia slammed her palms on the table as she stood. "I was in that Hall. Are you suggesting my husband was trying to kill me?" Gno grabbed at her sleeve. She shook him off. The room was deadly quiet.

"You weren't seriously injured, President."

"And neither were you, Meido. Is that a crime?"

"The bulk of the blast hit the seats, not the floor. If he knew you'd be there-"

"I'd be quiet now," Gno said. "General Solo is well respected. His affection for his family is extremely well known. He has jeopardized his life for the New Republic more often than anyone else except perhaps President Organa Solo and her brother. Games like this may have been popular in the Empire, but they are not popular here. We work on mutual respect in this Council. Respect, Meido, not idle recriminations." The crimson had almost completely faded from Meido's face. The white lines were blurring together. "I am not making idle accusations. I'm sorry, but I am not. I wish I were." The softness of his voice caught all of them. Leia could see it. Her supporters had all leaned back in their chairs.

"You said this is a preliminary report," Gno said. "You cannot have proof."

"But I do," Meido said. He looked up at Leia, his eyes pale. "I'm sorry, President. Truly I am." The thing of it was, she believed him. She believed he was sorry. Perhaps she could feel his regret through the Force or perhaps he was sending it through his body language. She didn't know. Slowly she sat down.

Meido passed out several copies of a single sheet of paper. "My people intercepted this message. I have sent it to your personal computers. You can verify its authenticity through your own systems." Leia took the paper. Her hand was shaking.

CARGO DELIVERED. FIREWORKS SPECTACULAR.

SOLO KNOWS.  WE CAN COUNT ON HIS INVOLVEMENT.

Lando. Lando had betrayed them again. Over the years she had learned to trust him, but that trust had always felt awkward, always slightly misplaced.

No. Lando wouldn't betray Han. What had he said? That he'd never make up for betraying Han. Ever.

The information must have come to Meido some other way.

"There's nothing here that says Han is involved with the bombing," she said.

"This was sent by a ship called the Spicy Lady just as it was leaving our section of space on the day of the bombing," Meido said. "The Spicy Lady is owned by a smuggler named Jarril, who was seen in Solo's company at the time of the bombing. Shortly after Jarril left, Solo left, ostensibly in search of him." It looked bad. She had known it looked bad when Lando showed it to her. She should have done something then, but Lando had assured her he had everything under control.

"This isn't proof," Gno said.

"This is suspicious," said R'yet Coome. "I would suggest that we put out a notification for Solo's arrest."

"We can't do that," C-Gosf said. "He's a hero."

"He's a traitor," Meido said.

"He's my husband," Leia said. "He would never do anything to harm me. Someone is trying to set him up." She clasped her shaking hands in her lap. "What else does your report say?"

"We have only preliminary results, President," Meido said. His voice was still gentle, still filled with apology. He accused her own husband of trying to murder her and to destroy everything they all had worked for, and he was acting sorry for her.

"What are those results, Senator?" Leia's voice was cold.

"That there was more than one detonation point."

"We know that," Leia said. "Our results say the same thing. Have you anything besides this message that links my husband to the scene?"

"He was seen with-"

"Have you?" Gno put his hand on Leia's. She shook him off.

"Have you evidence that he planted a bomb? Have you evidence that Jarril is involved in this bombing? Do you know whether Jarril sent that message or whether someone else did? Can you prove that this isn't some scheme to get my husband or to divide us?"

"Leia," Gno said softly.

"This seems conclusive to me," Meido said.

"It is not conclusive," Leia said. "It is mere speculation. I could devise a message tonight and send it along channels that would make it look as if you planted the bomb. Such things are easy. My husband and I are often targets for strange behavior. I don't think we should make decisions about this until we have the whole truth."

"Leia," Gno said again.

She turned on him so fast that her hair swung loose of its tie. "What?" she asked.

"You can't be objective about this."

"Objective?" Leia was shaking all over with the force of containing her anger. "This man, this former Imperial, has just accused my husband of treason, and you think I should be objective?"

"Yes," Gno said. "I do. You're the head of government. We need your calmness."

"Calmness? Calmness? This is not a situation for calmness, Gno. This is exactly what we feared when we brought the Imperials into this body. They're dividing us. Can't you all see the ploy?"

"Leia," Gno said.

Meido's entire face had gone white, except for crimson lines near his eyes and mouth. "I'm sorry, President."

"I will not accept your apology. How dare you-"

"He dares because he is doing the right thing." C-Gosf stood beside Leia and put a delicate arm around her shoulders. "Better he discusses this here, in the Inner Council, than among the other senators. Better that we do what we can to silence these rumors than allow them to spread all over Coruscant. For if we do, General Solo will always be under suspicion, even if we later learn of his innocence." All of her supporters were siding with Meido. "I'm sorry, President," he said again.

"Han had nothing to do with this," she snapped.

"Leia," Gno said, "I think you need to absent yourself from this discussion. None of us can be objective about the ones we love, no matter how hard we try." Her heart was pounding. "You believe Meido. You believe him."

"I believe we need to investigate this, Leia." Gno looked away from her. "I'm sorry. But the charge is too serious to let slip." She looked around the room, at her closest remaining allies in the government. Familiar faces, and three unfamiliar faces, elected after the bombing. Meido,

R'yet, and Wwebyls watched her warily. Her friends had sympathetic expressions on their faces. Even those who normally opposed her were looking at her with pity.

"Is this all it takes?" she asked. "An accusation, and a good man is found guilty of a crime he didn't commit? This is not proof, and even if it were, you all know Han. You know he's not capable of this."

"Leia, please, don't make this difficult," Gno said.

"What do you want me to do, Senator?" she asked, using his formal title. "Resign?"

"No," he said. "Absent yourself from any proceedings concerning Han. "

"And if I don't?" Gno looked away from her. C-Gosf squeezed Leia close and then let go. "Think about it, Leia. We'll meet in the morning. By then this news won't be quite as shocking."

"The news isn't shocking," Leia said as she stood. "What's shocking to me is your willingness to believe it."

"Forgive me, President," Meido said. "But whoever planted that bomb had to have access to the Chamber. Very few people had such access. The person who set the bomb will be one we trust. I can guarantee that, just from the circumstances. And I think when you're calm you'll realize that too."

Leia stood slowly, drawing upon all her regal training to stare down Meido. "When I was eighteen years old, I stood beside Grand Moff Tarkin as he gave one order from the depth of space and wiped out Alderaan, my home planet, with a single blast from the Death Star. Until that moment, I had believed the destruction of a planet in an instant was impossible. So don't tell me what has to be true, Meido. I am Force-sensitive. If my husband were to betray me or the Republic, I would know. And so would my brother, who is a Jedi Master. We still don't know what happened in the Hall that day. And until we do, we can't be certain if a friend betrayed us, or if someone tested a new weapon. But if I were you, I would stop making baseless accusations now. Such accusations will only divide us. And now, more than ever, we need to be unified." She met everyone's gaze individually. Borsk Fey'lya was leaning back in his chair, his eyes bright. Bel Iblis wasn't looking at her. ChoFi' was studying his hands. C-Gosf's whiskers were trembling, and she wouldn't meet Leia's gaze. Gno was the only one of her friends who smiled at her, in an attempt to reassure her.

They would not do any more than they already had. She could count on them to hear the evidence, nothing more.

Leia nodded once. "This meeting is adjourned until tomorrow morning. By then," she said, "I expect answers. Not accusations. Concrete information. Am I clear?" Leia didn't give them a chance to respond. She turned and walked out of the room, holding herself as proudly as she could. But once she was alone, she let the shaking overtake her.

It had begun. The unity she valued above everything except her family was shattering.

Just as she had known it would.

All right, can we all just agree that being the president of the New Republic just sucks?  How often is Leia going to be manipulated?  At least she immediately and relentlessly comes to Han's defense here.  She obviously knows without question that he wouldn't do something like that. 

Meanwhile, Han is not having an easy time as he is being chased after by some guys working for Nandreeson, who really, really wants Lando dead and wants to use Han as bait.  Han being Han, he does not get captured.  But Lando, who hadn't found Han yet, did get taken by Nandreeson and basically gets left swimming in this slime stuff to wait to die.  As we all know from watching all sorts of movies and reading books, when enemies catch the ones they want to kill, they should probably just kill them instead of leaving them to die elaborately.  I'll spoil it for you right now that Lando lives through this book.

One thing I remembered clearly from the first time I read this book was that it felt like everyone escaped death multiple times.  Leia and Wedge discover that someone has rigged all of the X-wings to explode if a certain series of commands is given, except they don't know what exactly that series entails.  They do know that they need to ground all of the X-wings, except Luke is off in one and they don't know where he is.  Cut to Luke, who while flying in his X-wing, explodes.  Crap. 

Meanwhile, Leia calls a meeting of her own to explain the X-wing incident, and the detonators have Imperial markings, which the new Imperials in the Senate think is just a way for her to make them look bad.  Wedge is not amused.  They accuse Han of treason, and then decide that what they really need is to take a vote of no-confidence in Leia.  Did I mention it must suck to be president of the New Republic?  There is a lot of back and forth in this meeting, lots of accusations of leaked information and such, and nobody gets anywhere.

Leia is of course still alone.  She checks and makes sure the kids are still fine.  She thinks that she would know if something happened to Han, and I quite like the insinuation that she is bonded to him in such a way that she could sense something like that.  Leia receives a message from Kueller, who has the same, skeletal face that Leia had seen in the beginning of the book in her vision.  He shows her an image of Luke, who survived his crash but is badly injured.  And he's very close to Kueller, who will kill him if Leia doesn't disband the government.  He also says that if she doesn't do what he asks, he will kill her husband and children as well.  And then he will kill all of her subjects.  And just to prove that he's serious, he uses the Force to kill a whole lot of random beings and Leia can sense it.  And he tells her that she has three days to decide or Luke is a dead man. 

So, Leia's life still sucks and she's just pacing alone in her chambers, constantly checking for messages from Han and knowing he can't communicate with her until he leaves the Run.

Han would have contacted her when he left the Run.

She had meant what she said to him just before he left. Sometimes she wished they were a normal couple with normal concerns. Then sitting down to dinner at night with her children would be routine, not the unusual. Sleeping beside her husband would happen every night instead of a few nights every other month.

But she was as loath to give up their life as he was.

Except at moments like these.

Ugh, every other month?  Really?  I cannot imagine that her job is worth that.  One of the elements of the EU I choose to pretend does not exist.  So Mon Mothma comes to visit.  Can someone please tell me if a meeting with Mon Mothma has ever gone well for Leia?  Leia tells her that she needs to step down from her role.  Kueller is targetting her family and if she steps aside she believes that this threat to the New Republic as a whole was secondary and he won't follow through with it, and it will also remove the threat of this vote. 

"He doesn't know you well, does he?" Mon Mothma said softly. "Threats to your family always make you stronger."

Leia's eyes burned. She rubbed at them. She didn't want sympathy. Not yet, anyway. Later, when she had time. "In either case," she said, choosing not to respond to Mon Mothma's last sentence, "the solution is the same. I need to step down as Chief of State."

Mon Mothma clasped her hands in her lap. "You can't do that now, Leia. I have had word from my sources in the Senate. Unless you campaign, you'll lose that no-confidence vote. They're looking to blame someone, anyone, for that bombing, and they'll blame Han, which means they'll blame you."

"I've thought this through," Leia said. She rubbed her hands together, nervous habits she hadn't used in years. "If I step down, the vote is null, right?"

"Well, technically, it's null only if you resign, Leia. A temporary standing aside will allow the vote to go forward." Leia nodded. She had been afraid of that, but it didn't matter. Luke mattered. Protecting her children mattered.

Han mattered.

For the first time since she had become head of the New Republic, she could serve her family better as a private citizen than as a public one.

"I'll resign, then," she said. "The vote's called off, and Kueller can no longer use the New Republic as his excuse for targeting my family."

Now, let's think about this for a minute.  Just another book before this one, Han was held hostage and Leia decided to give him up, not knowing that Luke was going to save him anyway.  Now Luke is the one in immediate danger, and she resigns.  But then there is this added glitch that apparently Kueller was also going to kill Han and the kids, so she has a lot more to lose in this case.  So, I don't know how I feel about this.  Also, at the end of this conversation she says that she's going after Luke.  So, that kind of bothers me.  She drops everything to go after Luke but in the last book she wouldn't do the same for Han?  I don't love this...

Fortunately, Han can take care of himself... mostly.  He is on a mission to save Lando, and he and his crew of smugglers make their way through some mud and muck to find and save Lando, who they finally find with Nandreeson, who also loves the idea of killing Han, whom he refers to as the princess's consort, to which Han feebly corrects, "Husband."  Han winds up swimming with Lando, and tells Nandreeson that his plan of waiting for the victims to drown is a little elaborate.  He agrees, and they start getting shot at.  Chapter ends.  See, I told you that everyone is about to die a lot during this book.  Case in point: after this chapter, Kueller nabs Luke and renders him unconscious.  Things aren't going well for our Rebel heroes.

Just as Leia is about to go off and find Luke, Wedge stops her and tells her that they are going to bring a whole fleet to help save Luke.  If they work fast enough, they emerge as heroes.  If not, they just say they were rogues who went off on their own. 

Remember when I said Han could take care of himself?  Well, of course he and Lando escape after some furious fighting in the slimy water.  He is on Lando's ship when he starts hearing massive explosions outside and goes to find that dozens of droids are exploding and all sorts of beings are injured.  He finds Blue who tells Han that she knows about Kueller and knows that he wants Luke and Leia dead.  The droids had been stolen from Coruscant, where they were intended to explode.  Oh, none of this is good news.

Han was frantic for Leia. More bombs on Coruscant. She might be dead by now. The entire planet might be in flames.

He hoped she had gotten the children away.


Poor Han.  See this is the kind of thing that wouldn't happen if they didn't split up all the time!  Han was torn now though between Leia and all of the injured beings there in front of him from the explosion:

"But we can't leave these people like this." Han's brain was moving faster than his mouth. He wanted to be gone, wanted to be outside the Run so that he could contact Coruscant and find out if anyone had survived.

Find out if Leia had survived.

His hands were shaking. All he could see was his beautiful wife, her white dress torn and scorch-marked, her hair falling around her ears, her nose bleeding, her body bent with the strain of carrying a senator three times her own weight. Leia during the last bombing. She might have collapsed if he hadn't taken her from there.

He wasn't there to rescue her now.

Well, at least you seem to be there to rescue her more often than she is there to rescue you.  Is it weird to anyone else that anytime, ever Leia is in trouble Han immediately drops what he's doing and goes after her but Leia doesn't seem to operate the same way when Han is in trouble?  Just a little something to think about.  Anyway, Han organizes some medics to help the injured and get them off-planet, all the while determined to get out and try and get to Leia, thinking about what might happen if he lost her.

Han hurried out of the Luck. He hoped he still had it all. Losing Leia and the children was a threat he seemed to have to deal with constantly, and it was one he never wanted to contemplate. He knew what he would do if they were murdered, and it would be ugly.

If something happened to Leia and the children, Han would never be considered nice again.

I don't think anyone wants to imagine Han Solo if someone messes with his family.

At least Leia is still on her mission, and we know she does not quit:

...she should have felt tired, but she was curiously elated. She loved this feeling. She had had it several times in her life. The first was the day she met Han. After the experience with the interrogation droid, after watching Alderaan shatter, after losing everything, she should never have been able to run through those corridors, blast her way into that garbage bin, and shoot her way to the Falcon, But she did.

Han called it a core of strength within her, but it was more than that. No matter what, she would never give up. She would win and take risks just as Han did. She had proven that when she had sent the fleets to Koornacht the year before.

Now she would have to do it again.

You keep kicking ass, Leia Organa-Solo.  She receives a message telling her that all of the new-model droids are dangerous, so she has them all deactivated.  There is no indication of who the message came from. 


Things start moving pretty fast at this point.  Leia finds Luke and they try and make their escape.  Han is getting the injured off the planet and finally gets to a point where he can check for messages, and he gets some from Leia but none of them are recent.  Then he finds one from Anakin:

It was from Anakin. The room behind him was dark, and he was hunched near the console. Obviously everyone else was asleep, and he was sending a message without permission.

"Papa?" he whispered. "Something bad happened, and I can't get Mama or Uncle Luke." Han felt a pang that his son had turned to Luke before coming to Han. But the children always did on Force matters. They knew Han had no expertise in that area.

"Winter says we would hear if something went wrong. But Papa, I keep having dreams of a dead man. Bad things are going to keep happening again, I know it." He glanced over his little shoulder, as if he had heard a noise. Then he hunched even closer to the console.

"Please call when you get this. Please." Anakin's image winked off.

Ugh, again, kind of mixed feelings here that Anakin would go to Luke before Han, and how it hurts Han to know this.  I can't stand the fact that they seem to constantly rub it in our faces that Han is somehow lesser-than because he doesn't have the Force.  But anyway...

So he then contacts Coruscant and talks to Mon Mothma and learns of Leia's resignation and that she was all right at last check, and of the accusation of treason against him, and, fortunately, that the droids had been deactivated.  Next up on his list is to talk to Anakin, so he contacts Winter on Anoth. 

"Let me speak to him," Han said.

"As you wish, sir." Her voice didn't have the disapproval her words implied. She was a wise woman, and probably a better parent to his children than either he or Leia was. She was with them all the time. Han had no qualms about the arrangement. Only a few stabs of guilt daily that he wasn't with his children as much as he should be.

Oh, the anger inside me is rising as I read this.  You're letting a nanny be a better parent to your kids than you are?  Really?  And you're letting this happen and not spending time with them?  Seriously?  This is infuriating!  Not to mention the idea that Han would even admit to himself that she was a better parent than he or Leia.  Again, can we pretend that they raised their own kids?  And yet again, what happened between the last book and this one that suddenly Han and Leia aren't raising their own kids anymore?  I don't get it!

Anakin's small face appeared on the screen. His resemblance to Luke always startled Han. That, and his son's blue eyes, which had more intelligence in them than Han had seen in any being, human or otherwise.

Oh, there's some more pointless foreshadowing of how smart and Force sensitive Anakin Solo is.  Seriously, they work so hard to build this kid up in these books only to kill him at 15 years old.  Talk about crappy story telling.

"Winter already said I shouldn'ta called you." Han smiled, hoping that the smile was reassuring. "No, Anakin. You can always contact me. Just let Winter know first." His son nodded. He looked very subdued. Even the worst of Winter's scoldings never brought this.

"What's happening?" Han asked. "What scared you so?"

"Can't find Mama," Anakin said. "Jacen and Jaina say she's all right, though. We'd know."

"She is all right," Han said. "She's on a trip right now. She'll be back soon." Anakin rubbed his left eye with his fist. He clearly hadn't been getting much sleep. "I know," Anakin said. "She's going to see the dead man." Han glanced at Chewie, who shrugged.

"He comes in my dreams. He says he will get us. He can't get us, can he, Papa?"

"No," Han said, feeling an anger so deep that he could barely hold it in. "You're safe on Anoth."

"They got here once," Anakin said.

Han remembered. Winter and a nanny droid had saved his infant son's life. He was surprised that Anakin remembered. But then, nothing Anakin did should surprise him. "Winter saved you. That's what she's there for."

"I wish you were here."

Oh, good to know that Anakin wants his daddy around sometimes to make him feel safer.

"I do too, son," Han said. Then Jacen and Jaina crowded into the picture and demanded some of his time. He gave them what he could. Chewie growled a warning. Han looked up. Wrea filled the cockpit transparisteel.

"Put Winter back on, would you, guys?" he said. They protested but drifted off, all except Anakin, who watched from the side, looking more serious than Han had ever seen him.

"Winter," Han asked. "Have you any droids there?"

"We shut them off, per Master Skywalker's instruction." Luke was way ahead of him. Thank every lucky piece Han had ever owned.

"Keep them off," Han said. "And Anakin, no fooling with the droids at all. Okay, son?" Anakin nodded. No protest, no nothing. That wasn't like his youngest son. Then Anakin said, "Papa?" Winter stepped aside. Apparently she was as worried about Anakin as Han was.

"What, little Jedi?"

"The dead man says he'll kill Mama."

Han smiled, even though his anger deepened. "The dead man has no right telling you lies in your dreams. I'm going to your mother right now. She'll be just fine."

"He almost killed her the first time," Anakin said, his voice small.

Han started. The Senate Hall, the droids, the messages, everything traced to Kueller. "Maybe he thinks that," Han said, "but your mom is one of the toughest people I know. He scared her. He scared all of us. But he didn't 'almost kill' her."

"She was hurt."

"Yes," Han said. "She was. This 'dead man' of yours isn't very nice. But we'll get him, and we'll make him stop giving you dreams."

"Promise, Papa?"

"I promise," Han said. "You be careful, Anakin, okay? Listen to Winter."

Anakin nodded. "Love you, Papa." Han glanced at Chewie. Chewie stared at the controls as if he weren't listening to the exchange.

"Me, too, kid," Han said. It was the best he could do in front of Chewie. "See you soon." And then he signed off.

Well, regardless of my anger that the kids are off somewhere else and all of the implications that Han and Leia have almost nothing to do with parenting their own kids, I do enjoy little bits like this of Han being a good dad in the face of such adversity. 

Craziness ensues.  Han picks up Mara and some ylsalamiri to help mess with Kueller, who is in the midst of a lightsaber duel with Luke and Leia.  Don't ask me for more details, this was a long book!  Plus, above planet is a big space battle with the fleet and Wedge.  I told you there was a lot going on. 

Han, Chewie, Mara and their ylsalamiri make it to the planet, searching frantically for Leia.  Just as he's about to give up Han hears a woman yelling in the distance and immediately knows it's Leia.  Before they can get to her, a large and menacing creature shows up and eats the ylsalamiri, cage and all, which sort of ruins Han's whole plan after clawing and bloodying Han's shoulder in the process. 

They continue to head toward Leia's voice and Han is even more nervous as her cries of Luke's name are getting more desperate.  And apparently Luke appears ready to let Kueller kill him, only to come back as a Force ghost and help Leia defeat him.  But in the midst of battle, suddenly they each stop feeling things through the Force, as though they are being blocked.  Kueller, rather than striking Luke because he's thrown off his game, pulls out a remote detonator and punches in some numbers.  Elsewhere, Artoo, the true hero of the Rebellion, has deactivated all of the detonators this is meant to set off. 

Leia can't sense Luke anymore, but suddenly she senses... "... someone close.  Someone precious."  Who could that be?  She finally turns to see Han.  As Luke is still in the heat of battle, she calls Han's blaster to her through the Force and turns and fires on Kueller, killing him in a couple of shots and wondering if she's gone to the dark side by doing so.  But she hadn't felt through the Force, as even though the ylsalamiri had been eaten it was still doing its job.  And Han finally approaches Leia.

She took one last look at the man who had threatened her entire family. Then she turned around. Han was behind her, watching her.

"I love you, Princess," he said softly.

She launched herself into his arms, and pulled him close. "I know," she whispered. "I know."

Well, they do know how to make me happy sometimes with just a few short lines.  I'm always a big fan of Leia "launching herself" into Han's arms.  I am also a fan of this little passage from when they get back home:

Leia was wearing a copy of her white dress, but she had forgone the braids wrapped around her ears. Instead, she wore her hair down. Han had smiled at her before she left the suite, and had made her promise to return from the Senate early. The children were due back the following day. He wanted to make the most of his time alone with her.

So did she.

Does this count as directly implied sexy time?  It probably should.  Obviously they later stay up all night "making the most of their time alone."  We know what that means.  Even Mon Mothma does, apparently:

"Then I am going home. Han promised dinner for me."

"And no children until tomorrow," Mon Mothma said.

Leia smiled. "A person always has to make the best of every situation," she said.

"Oh, you do, Leia," Mon Mothma said.

Yeah, even Mon Mothma and all of her frigid bitchiness knows that when you have a night alone with Han Solo, you make the most of it.  All appears to be well with the New Republic.  Since the mission had been a success Leia is regarded as a hero once again.  No more dissention, everything is just swell.  End of book.  No, there is no chapter of them making the most of their time alone.  But if you would like to write it for us, please, go ahead!

Phew, I forgot how time consuming these things are!  Especially when Han and Leia are so prominently featured.  As just a general Star Wars book, I really enjoy this one.  Lots of action, but the kind of action that actually engages me and keeps me interested rather than just seemingly pointless space battles.  I was always pretty drawn into what was going on and at times genuinely concerned as to what might happen to our heroes.  And for the most part Han and Leia are in character, which is always a plus. 

And in spite of their being apart and the constant reminder that they are apart all of the time, there are also plenty of indications that they do, in fact, share a pretty close bond.  Leia can sense Han when he's near, she wears his shirt when he's gone and longs for his presence, he drops everything to save her, a really good kiss and some solid evidence that they have fun alone when the kids are away.  Except let's not try and think about how often the kids are away. 

That said, given their extensive time apart I think I can only in good conscience give this one a 3 on the Han and Leia factor scale.  Maybe a 3.5, I don't know.  It's been a while since I did one of these and I kind of forgot how I usually rate them!  So comment, agree or disagree.  But all that said, This is high up there on my list of favorite EU books.  It's an enjoyable read if you get your hands on it.

I promise to try not to let another 8 months pass before the next book review!

Friday, November 23, 2012

Thanksgiving Weekend Treat

It's funny, but I really do have random things written on my hard drive that I totally forgot about and never posted anywhere.  This particular little story is a response to a random challenge between Push and I that she gave me which was:   An Accident, An Apology and a Promise...  Tell a story with all three, can be funny or serious, can happen in any order, can be related or different events, etc., etc., etc...

This was what came out for me.  If any of you are interested in participating, please feel free to use that as a prompt. 

And what happened around here?  Did everyone move to some desserted island without internet access?  Let's get some action going!

To further influence your reading this story I will spoil in advance that Han is naked in it...



The Millennium Falcon raced towards Coruscant with an urgency that would make one believe that lives were at stake. For once, that was not the case. 

Han Solo slapped away his copilot Chewbacca's furry paw as the Wookiee reached over in an attempt to decelerate. "We're not comin' in too hot,” the Corellian stubbornly insisted.
“I'm tellin' ya, we're fine."

Chewbacca roared in disagreement, but seemed to realize that he would not be able to convince his partner.

"Sorry, Pal. It's been a few weeks."

Chewie rolled his eyes. In the scant few months since the end of the war, the Wookiee had grown impatient with his friend's behavior regarding a certain princess who would also soon become his wife. Han had started acting like some lovesick teenager whenever he was away from Leia, and while Chewie was happy for the couple, their behavior at times was irritating.

Now that things had settled down, Han and Leia had decided to purchase a permanent apartment on Coruscant, and that night would be their first together in their new home. This was why the Corellian was pushing speeds usually reserved for evasive maneuvers rather than landing on what was now a friendly port. Chewie knew Han could handle it as it was nothing he hadn’t done before, but it wasn’t the kind of thing most sane pilots did unless they were being shot at.

The two ex-smugglers had somehow been roped into helping Lando with a few things on one of his latest schemes, which left Han Solo without his princess for a little longer than he would've liked. But she had been off helping negotiate trade routes for the New Republic, so it turned out his absence wouldn't have been noticed. But she was due to return the same day, and Han couldn't wait to spend that night and every night thereafter with her.

Han heard Chewie growl much more insistently in his ear and finally relented. "All right, all right. I'll slow down. Happy?" Moving his hands across the console, the ship slowed considerably. "Just make sure to tell Leia that you're the reason I'm late."

Chewie agreed and the two spacers made their way to what had become the permanent docking bay for the Falcon.

Once they landed and powered down, Han could finally make out the petite brunette standing at the edge of the hangar, waiting for his return with a big smile on her face. Han was so anxious to see her that he nearly forgot to shut down the engines before heading for the exit ramp; stopping to grab a duffel bag he’d packed with some clothes and toiletries along the way.

Once the ramp was lowered, he could hardly keep himself from running to her, but she helped by closing some of the distance herself before flinging her arms around his neck and pulling him into a long, deep kiss.

He dropped the bag, pulled her close and pressed his face into her neck, inhaling the sweet scent of her perfume. "I missed you."

"Not as much as I missed you," Leia replied, squeezing him with all of the strength her arms possessed.

Han moved away just enough to look into her eyes. "I doubt that."

Chewie roared from the background and Leia looked over Han's shoulder and laughed. "I missed you, too, Chewie."

"Get ready to miss him again because he's takin' the Falcon back to Kashyyyk for a few days while we break in the new place."

Chewie came over and ruffled the hair of his human companions before Leia said, "Thank you for bringing him back in one piece again, Chewie.”

Chewie growled in response. "All right, pal. I know you're anxious to get back, so don't worry about us. We'll see you next week?"

Chewie nodded and Leia moved in to hug the Wookiee. "You be careful. Although I know that's a lot easier when Han isn't the one in the pilot's chair."

"Hey!" Han protested.

"You know it's true."

"Fine. Take care of my ship, ya hear me? And be glad I’m not asking you to help us move in."

Chewie growled once again and walked back up the boarding ramp, quickly piloting the ship back into the atmosphere.

Han turned back to Leia, still nestled up against his side with an arm around his waist while they walked toward the hangar door. "So, when did you get back?" Han asked.

"Less than an hour ago. I haven't even had a chance to go home yet."

Han smiled at the way she was already calling it home even though they hadn't yet spent a night there. "Well, let's go home together then, shall we?"

She gave him a squeeze. "I like that idea."

Han drove their speeder toward the building that housed their new apartment. They had spent some time picking out new furniture since neither had anything, and Han had arranged for it all to be delivered and set up in time for their return. He'd never had to furnish an entire living space before, and there seemed to be a lot more to it than he realized. But he was pretty sure they’d taken care of everything, and had at least been smart enough to pay extra for it all to be set up and installed for them, rather than trying their patience by attempting to put things together themselves. He couldn't wait to see how everything looked in their own place.

Han held their bags in one hand and Leia's hand in the other as they walked from the speeder to the entrance; still getting used to always having a beautiful woman on his arm but loving every second of it.

Once they made it to their floor, Han paused in front of the door. "You know, sweetheart, I hear that a man's supposed to carry his woman over the threshold of their new home."

"I think that's supposed to happen after they're married."

He pulled her close and then scooped her up into his arms. "We're close enough. And after we make it official maybe I'll just do it again."

Leia laughed and Han palmed the door open and took only one step inside before he put Leia back down on her feet, staring open-mouthed at their vast living room illuminated by the window covering an entire wall.

"Um, Han? Why is our new apartment still completely empty?"

"Son of a-" he slapped his hand against his forehead and left it over his eyes, doing a mental check of how his conversation with the movers had gone and groaning as he realized his error. "I think I might've accidentally told them next week."

"Well, this is very cozy. Nice job, hotshot. Didn’t anybody ever tell you how to read a calendar? We can't even sleep on the Falcon because Chewie took it. We could ask Luke."

"What, and have a slumber party at your brother's tiny little place? Leia, I don't know about you, but I had some pretty fun ideas for our reunion, and sleeping on your brother's couch is going to make most of them impossible."

"Well, did any of them involve no furniture? Because that's all we're left with here. Maybe you can try and comm them and see if they'll still come deliver our things."

Han glanced at his chrono. "Those guys never work this late."

"Well, maybe we should just rent a room for the night."

"Sweetheart, I was really looking forward to our first night in our new apartment."

Leia sighed. "So was I, but we can't stay here without anywhere to sit or sleep."

Han looked down at her and his expression finally softened. "Sure we can."

"Be serious, Han. I'm not sleeping in the middle of the floor."

"Why not? And who said anything about sleeping?"

"Well, if that's what you're after, just think of the rug burn."

Han laughed, remembering again how much he loved this woman. "Well, all we have to do is run out and pick up a few little essentials and I guarantee that we’ll have a memorable first night in our new home. Whad’ya say?

She turned to face him, then slid a hand along his cheek until it rested against the back of his head. "I say let's make it happen," She pulled him in for a kiss. "As long as you promise to call and get our things delivered tomorrow. I love you, but I am not willing to live as a refugee for any longer than I have to."

"Deal. Let's go get this little shopping trip out of the way so we can start the reunion the way I've been planning."

She grabbed his hand and pulled him toward the door. "Sounds good to me. Let's go."
In less than an hour the couple had acquired just enough to get them through the night. A couple of pillows, blankets, two towels, a small lamp and some dinner. Each at least had a bag with some clothes and toothbrushes; although Han had insisted that no clothes would be required.
 
Han had lain out the blankets and pillows in a sort of nest in the middle of the main living area in front of the vast window overlooking the city skyline. He'd kicked off his boots, shrugged off his jacket and sat down among the pile before holding his hand out to Leia.
"Care to join me, sweetheart?"

Leia reached out and took his hand. "I'd love to." Stepping over the outer wall of pillows, she sat down next to her soon-to-be husband and leaned up against his side, resting her head on his shoulder as his arm snaked around her.

"I told you we could make this work," he said.

"And you were right. Just don't get used to it."

"Any ideas on how we could pass the time?"

"Something tells me that you have plenty of ideas of your own."

He smiled down at her. "You're right about that," he replied before leaning down and kissing her and lowering her down to the blankets, determined to give her more than one reason to never forget their first night in their new apartment.

A while later, Han rolled Leia off him so she was lying by his side and then pulled the blankets up to cover their now-naked bodies, pulling her close once again. "I think I'm going to like living here with you," Han said, still almost breathless.

Leia ran her fingers through the sweat-soaked strands of hair at the back of his neck. "I love you, Han," Leia said simply.

He leaned in and kissed her neck. "I love you, Leia."

Han rolled on top of her once again, kissing along her collar bone and already wanting to continue their reunion. Her response was unmistakable as her hands gripped at his back. "Gods, Han. If this is what it's going to be like every night I think both of our day jobs are in jeopardy."

"I'm willing to risk it," he responded between kisses.

"I suppose I shouldn't be worried," Leia responded while Han was paying her neck close attention. "Once we become an old, boring married couple I'm sure you'll be tired of me."

Han stopped what he was doing and immediately pulled back to look into Leia's eyes, able to tell she was only half joking. He reached up and stroked her long hair away from her face. "Sweetheart, no matter what happens, you have to know that I will never, ever get tired of you."

“Sure, it’s easy to say that now.”

He brought a finger to her lips. “Easy to say it because it’s true. Sweetheart, I only want you for the rest of my life.”

Leia reluctantly smiled. "You promise?"

He nodded his head. "I promise. What about you?"

Leia looked confused. "Me?"

"Yeah, you. I figure if either one of us is going to be worried in this situation, it’s probably me. Do you promise you won't get sick of me?"

She smiled again and brought her hand up to cup his cheek. "Han, if I haven't gotten rid of you yet, it's probably safe to say that I'm going to want you to stick around forever. Especially considering the fact that I'm willing to stay here with you even if it means sleeping on the floor."

"Yeah, sorry about that. I swear I'll fix it tomorrow. Now that we’ve gotten that out of the way…" he moved to kiss her once again, and it wasn't until just before dawn that they finally fell into an exhausted sleep.

Leia awoke first, opening her eyes to see Han's face half buried in the pillow next to hers, the blanket pulled up under his arm while he slept peacefully. It was certainly not the first time she'd awakened with the ex-smuggler sleeping next to her, but it was the first time it had happened in a place that was theirs --not just his or hers. It wasn't his ship, it wasn't her quarters, it was their new home, and she couldn’t help but smile.

I could get used to this, she thought, then brought her hand up to rest against his warm cheek, now rough with stubble. Her touch caused him to stir and she saw the hazel in his eyes before he smiled back at her. "Good morning, your beautifulness," he said.

"Hmmm... that's a new one."

"I got a million of 'em saved up. Gotta keep things interesting if I'm going to have to keep you happy for the rest of my life."

"Works for me," she said before he leaned in and kissed her gently.

"I'd cook you breakfast, sweetheart, but I think we forgot to buy food."

"That's ok. We don't have anything to cook with anyway."

They laughed then, and Leia couldn't get over the ridiculousness of their situation; lying on the floor in a few blankets in the middle of their large apartment like some poor, newlywed couple. They would soon be newlyweds, but poverty was something she was fairly certain they'd never have to endure. She knew Han had experienced it before and was glad that she'd be able to make sure that he wouldn’t have to go through it again.

Leia leaned in and held him close, closing her eyes against his chest. "Please tell me I don't have to go to work today."

Han’s response was immediate. "You don't have to go to work today. You don't ever have to go back again. We can just stay here as long as you want," he replied before kissing her forehead.

“As much as I’d love for that to be the case, I really should get ready to go. Are you going to stay here and wait for our things to be delivered? You are going to get the movers to come today, right?”

“Of course. I’ll take care of it.”

“Good. Now I need to go and take a quick shower and get going.”

“I’ll stay here and watch you walk away,” Han said, and Leia turned back to see him sitting bare-chested in the nest of blankets and pillows with a goofy grin on his face. It made her wonder how difficult it would be to get things done now that they were living together, but she blew him a kiss and headed for the ‘fresher.

Once clean, she had just wrapped the towel around herself when she heard a loud thud and Han yelling in pain. “Han?” Opening the door, she ran out to find him writhing on the floor in the kitchen. She bent down next to him. “What happened?”

Han was cradling his left wrist while his face was scrunched in pain. “I had a little accident.”

She reached out and gently took his injured appendage between her hands. “I can see that. How, exactly?”

“I turned on the faucet and water sprayed all over me and when I went to grab a towel I slipped and fell on my wrist.”

Leia wanted to be sympathetic, she really did. But seeing Han naked and writhing in pain in the middle of their kitchen floor made her unable to suppress the laughter.

Han gave her an annoyed look. “I’m glad to see you’re so concerned.”

“I’m sorry, Han. It’s just you… lying there… without…” she started laughing again.

“Next time I find you lying on the floor in pain like this I’ll be sure to laugh at you, too.”

He snatched his wrist away from her and rolled to his side to get up, but Leia placed a steadying hand on his back. “Oh, come on, Han. I’m sorry.”

“No, you’re not,” Han replied.

“I really am sorry, Han. Come on. Forgive me?”

He turned his head to look at her just as her hand slid down his back toward his rear and she saw his expression change as she gently caressed him. “You make it pretty hard for a guy to stay mad, you know that?”

“That’s what I was counting on,” she said as she took his injured wrist in her hand, brought it to her lips and kissed it. “Is that better?”

“A little.” He paused and then looked up into her eyes before he spoke again. “ I think I bumped my head a little, too,” he said, pointing to a spot above his eye.

She leaned in and pressed a gentle kiss where his finger had been. “Better?” She asked as she looked into his eyes.

“Almost perfect,” he said before leaning in and kissing her on the lips. She kissed him back and really wanted nothing more than to continue, but she really did have to get to work.

“Han,” she said between kisses, then finally pulled away from him. “Can you hold that thought until I get home this afternoon? I assume we’ll even have some furniture by then.”

He looked disappointed, but quickly relented, nodding his silent approval. “Help me up?”

She smiled and stood, then lowered her hand to his good one and helped him to his feet.
“You sure you’re all right?” she asked again.

“I’ll be fine.”

She stood on her tiptoes to kiss him and pulled back to say, “I’ll be back at 0500. I want you in that same outfit when I come back.”

“I can manage that. I think I’m going to like living with you, princess.”

“I feel the same way, Han,” she replied before kissing him one last time and going to get dressed. “I feel the same way.”

Friday, November 16, 2012

Guest Contribution from AmaraZ

This wonderful contribution is from AmaraZ.  She challenged herself to write a quick story and when this idea struck her, she followed through.  Thanks for sharing AmaraZ - you did an awesome job!  (I hope you don't mind that I inserted a few pics to go along with your story)

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Leave it to Han Solo to make a move on her while they were on the run from the Empire. Only he would have the nerve to do it now in the middle of an impossible situation. As if hiding in an asteroid in the middle of deep space wasn’t bad enough. But maybe like her, he had grown tired of their games. While their verbal warfare was at times fun, it was still an unnecessary disruption at a time when she so desperately needed fewer distractions and more time and energy to focus on the task at hand – the war she was so determined to win.

As the handsome Corellian eased himself towards her in the small space of the circuitry bay, there was only general curiosity and concern on his face. Nothing to indicate at first he had more on his mind than offering assistance. But her defenses went up quickly as he drew nearer and she had a feeling there was no deflecting his attention this time. No amount of teasing, nagging, or arguing was going to get her out of this.

If you let him in, he will hurt you.

The words came unbidden as they always had. It was that voice that constantly reminded her of her duties. That always reminded her of Han’s more obvious nature and had her incredulous, wary, and suspicious for the last three years. It was hard to tell if it was time, war, or politics that had done that to her, that had honed the slightly jaded part of her. But it was still there. And even with a prevalence of good deeds as of late, part of her remained convinced Han was just a scoundrel.

Han continued to move closer and she began to pull back against the wall as far as she could go. She quickly realized how little space she had left. All of her combat and diplomatic training hadn’t covered this. Of course she knew about basic interrogation and intrigue. But why hadn’t anyone thought of warning her about this? No one or nothing had prepared her for the onslaught Han was unleashing on her now. Already, he was close, too close, the musky scent of his skin and his cologne already beginning to override her senses and jumble her ability to reason.

If you let him in, he will leave you.

This was for certain. Han had made his plans abundantly clear. And there was no changing that fact. He was too deeply in debt to Jabba the Hutt and it would be suicide for him and those around him to stay any longer. But…hadn’t he been in debt for years? All this time and he had yet to do anything about it or to actually say good-bye. It had her wondering what it might mean about his intentions and how he felt. Was it possible he was more concerned about something larger than himself? Could it mean that maybe she meant more to him than his own concerns?

The brush of his skin against hers momentarily distracted her as he carefully took her hand in his. His hold on her hand was tight, but delicate, and he began to gently massage it. The contact sent tingles up her spine and it surprised her how easily he could affect her with his touch.

If you let him in, you will lose him.

This was an unfortunate state of affairs, but no less true. There were very few people left in the galaxy that Leia knew and who knew her. Truly knew her. A flash of light had seen to that. Everyone who had ever touched her was gone, leaving her with a cold, hard reality. One of duty, honor, and a driving need to get the job done. She wasn’t naïve. There was no doubt that loving someone during times like these was a high risk proposition. The Rebellion was losing people left and right and there wasn’t always a rhyme or reason to it. She knew it deep in her gut to be true. And yet here she was letting Han eek his way into her heart and touch her in a way no one else had.

If you let him in, it will destroy you.

This was probably Leia’s deepest fear. If they did get involved and he left, when he left, where would that leave her? Could she survive another loss? Would she? But apparently she couldn’t help it. Her heart already seemed willing to open to him, much to her chagrin.  She had tried to stop it, but somehow Han had managed to slip in anyway. How was it that he had the walls she built so carefully for years crumbling as easily as if felled by a detonator? What was it about this man that ruined her best laid plans?

As he loomed over her, the reason was obvious. At this close range, it was so, so easy to become mesmerized by the green and gold flecks in his eyes, by the emotions reflected in their depths. For so long she could only guess at how he felt, but now it was so clearly written all over his face. Could it be that all this time he cared for her more than he admitted? Dare she believe all of the things he had done for her, all of the times he had saved her had been more than just doing the right thing? Dare she let herself fall? Could she let herself take the chance?

The choice was taken out of her hands though as Han made his final move and closed the remaining distance between them, seizing her lips with his in a searing kiss.

If you let him in, you might fall in love.

As Leia gave herself fully and the last of her resistance slipped away, she knew that was the scariest proposition of them all.


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Thanks again for sharing AmaraZ!

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Inspiration

As many of you know, I have been in a fanfic drought lately.  I have moved residence and jobs and have had zero free time.  Just this past week, however, I found some time to catch up on a few of my favorite sites:  Blue Milk Special and an assortment of the F*&% Yeah tumblrs just to name a few. 

I then sat down and wrote, in fairly short order, two short stories.  Both are surrounding Leia in her teen years before A New Hope would've taken place.  I shared the stories with Zyra, as I always do, and she wondered what had inspired me to write about that era.  I thought about it and it was definitely a picture of a young Carrie Fisher on the F%$# Yeah Carrie Fisher tumblr.  I told Zyra that and she mused how funny it can be where we get our inspiration from. 

Anyway, all of that was a lead-in so I can ask:  Where do you (if you write or draw or what-have-you) find your inspiration?  Or where is the strangest place that you have stumbled upon some inspiration?  

I'll share first, my inspiration from this week.  First the pic:






Then the stories.  My initial inspiration was a story with Bail and Leia doing some training or something but when fingers went to keyboard, this came out (be warned, this has not been beta'd for grammar or anything else for that matter):


I Know
Alderaan – 4 BBY

“Yes, but how do you know?”

Leia shrugged. “I just…know.” Like I know not to ask about my real parents. She never understood it, but she had also never questioned it. It was an innate ability she had always had, like the way Winter could remember everything. It didn’t have to or couldn’t be explained. Her mother seemed uneasy with her response. She excelled at making her mother uneasy. Leia shuffled on her feet. “Can I go now?”

Her mother studied her, like she was one of those puzzles Bail would bring back from a business trip. Then her eyes softened and the edges of her mouth ticked up in a smile. Leia’s insides flushed with warmth and she took two steps and engulfed her mother in a tight hug, burying her head against her chest. Breha immediately reciprocated, stroking Leia’s hair and kissing her on the top of the head as she whispered, “Oh, my precious daughter.”

The words were laced with a sorrow Leia was all too familiar with but, yet again, had never understood. It’s as if I have a terminal illness they’re not telling me about. She had even discussed her suspicions with Winter, who had wholly dismissed the idea as preposterous. Of course, Winter also thought that those deportment lessons were fun.

“It’s not for me to understand, my sweet Leia,” her mother said as she began to pull away. Leia looked up to her mother, her chin lifted just a tad as she continued to catch up to her petite mother’s height. Breha cupped Leia’s chin in her hand, her eyes puddles of liquid warmth. “Always trust your heart,” she said emphatically.

Leia swallowed. Bail may very well have served as a more prominent figure in her life in the eyes of many, but Leia admired and trusted her mother just as implicitly.

Breha took a breath and continued, “Sometimes, just knowing…is more than enough.”

“I know, Mother,” she replied seriously and then instantly smiled at the unintended drollness of her response.

Breha’s eyes lit with humor and mischief. Leia always enjoyed seeing this side of her royal mother. “Yes,” she responded lightly as she released Leia’s chin. “Just as I know you just can’t help yourself sometimes.”

“I was being serious,” Leia returned in a half-argument, half-pout yet total playfulness. She’s right, I can’t help it.

“Go,” her mother replied, indicating the doorway as the older woman returned to her work. “You’ll be late and your father will worry.”

“I love you, Mother,” Leia said. Once again she felt a warmth blossom in her belly. Quiet, intimate moments with Breha Organa were hard to come by, even for her own daughter. For as much as politics and travel took Bail away from her, obligations and unseen worries took her mother even further and more often. She cherished unexpected times such as these where the two of them were able to be simply a mother and daughter. Of course, they happened so rarely, that it was an old habit of Leia’s to try and drag them out as long as possible.

Breha stopped. “I love you, too, Leia,” she replied warmly in silent understanding. But then her eyes widened and she put on her no-more-arguments-about-this face and added, “Now go.”

Leia beamed. Somehow her mother always made her feel loved and understood even when it was very clear that in some ways she didn’t understand her at all. I don’t know what I would do without her, she thought as she turned on her heel and scampered out the door. 

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Okay, I don't know how a story about Bail turned into that, but I kinda liked it anyway.  Afterward, however, I had to set my fingers back on the keys until this came out (again, no beta...):

Leia's Laugh
Alderaan – 2 BBY

Bail Organa watched as the shadows stretched lazily against the rolling hills of the Organa Estate. He held his arms out wide and yawned in imitation. His eyes drifted back towards the sound of blaster fire over his right shoulder just in time to see the intended target explode. The shot was good, better than he probably could've done, but it was a little late. “That was perfect,” he said, his stomach growling as his mind wandered to what might be happening in the large kitchen up at the main house.

“I hesitated,” his daughter returned grumpily as she checked the charge on her blaster and summoned the target droid for another round.

“C'mon, Leia, sweetheart. It's getting late, you'll barely be able to see the targets.”

His daughter turned toward him swiftly, that familiar determined look on her face. “And how many ambushes have you heard about that happened in broad daylight?”

He raised his hands in surrender. “Point. But I'm hungry. Even the best trained soldiers know when to stop and eat.”

“One more round?” She asked, her wide eyes absolutely impossible to say no to.

“One more round,” Bail conceded with a proud smile.

Nearly every family in their circle of friends trained their children in basic combat techniques and self-defense. For most, the daughters proved difficult students at best. Typical girls were more interested in learning how to braid their hair extravagantly then how to handle an assortment of blasters. But his Leia was different.

Driven would be the one word to describe her. As he watched her fire off another round, Bail was secretly grateful. He shuddered to think what his life would be like if he had had to force this training onto his daughter every step of the way. Because for his family, for his daughter in particular, this wasn't just some silly precaution. For her it would be all too real.

Everyone assumed it was due to his rumored role in the Rebellion against the Empire that Bail trained his daughter so. That is why when Leia opted for interrogation training over a fancy party, no one raised an eyebrow. It provided an excellent cover. Leia's talents could very well be tested someday as the Rebellion gained momentum, he had to admit, but that was not the test that Bail had spent his entire life preparing her for.

We'll take the girl. He had said those words all those years ago. He could still hear his voice perfectly as he spoke them, could smell the sterile air of the hospital board room where they had sat, could feel the prickle against the back of his neck as he realized that this was something bigger than he had ever taken on before. Little did I know.

Being a father was bigger than Bail had ever anticipated. He had no idea that love could be so boundless. And the more he watched her grow, the more he saw that she was prepared and ready and that the time was most assuredly drawing near, the more he begged for time to stand still.

“Hellooo. Alderaan to base command?”

Bail blinked and found Leia staring at him, her blasters packed away and the target droid ambling off toward the back of the estate. “That was much better,” he sputtered with an easy smile as he pulled Leia under the crux of his arm and began to lead her toward the house.

“You're a terrible liar, Bail Organa.  And I thought only really old, old men could fall asleep standing up.”

“I wasn't sleeping. I was deep in thought.”

“About me,” Leia stated.

Bail hugged her to him. He learned long ago not to be surprised by her perceptiveness. “What else is there?” He asked and she laughed as Bail shut his eyes briefly, cherishing that glorious sound.


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I have to say it felt really good to write after such a long time!  Now feel free to comment (or not).  No pressure here.  None at all.  :-)

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

The Reluctance to Review Sexy Time (...and Most Everything Else)

Let's take a ten minute break from all of this Episode 7 talk, shall we?  And let's talk a little bit about fan fiction, since it's been a while.  We've got a great mix of people on this site.  People who write, people who just read, people who write and read.  Probably not people who only write because that would be sort of strange and self indulgent.  But anyway, I know there are plenty of readers who have not posted stories either because they aren't writers and don't want to be, or maybe they're too shy to post anything or they just plain don't have time.  That's fine.  Nothing wrong with just reading along and enjoying it if you have no aspirations to write anything yourself.

So for those of you who don't write, you might not quite understand the kinds of things we go through as writers.  It's probably easy to imagine us at our computers typing away and spending time writing and editing our stories.  Sometimes a considerable amount of work can go into it, or sometimes I know I've written a story in twenty minutes and just gotten the silly idea out of my head and posted it before I came to my senses.  We do it just because we enjoy doing it.

So what do we get out of posting these stories?  Obviously not money.  I really wish almost anything I enjoy in life would actually produce a viable income, but so far, not so good.  I honestly don't think we do it for the accolades, either.  We mostly just do it because we enjoy it.  But, I will say that it is a heck of a lot more fun posting stories when you get some sort of acknowledgment.  Or, more accurately, I would say that is often what keeps us writing. 

I'm sure I've said it before, but to those of you who don't write, you have no idea what it means to a writer to get even just a few kinds words about something you're written.  Obviously the ultimate is when people point out several specific things that they liked, but even just taking two seconds to write that you enjoyed something can be meaningful.  When a story is posted on fanfiction.net we can check and see how many people read it.  We see the traffic stats.  We get notifications when people favorite or follow a story.  You wouldn't believe how many people favorite stories without ever saying a word to the author about why they might have enjoyed it. 

My favorite little quirk of the reviewing of fanfic is the fact that it seems like people are extremely reluctant to review sexy time fics.  Or, within a larger story, the sexy time chapters.  Even more fun is the fact that you can break the traffic stats down quite specifically and without fail the adult rated stories/chapters get far more hits than anything else, and they are almost always the least reviewed stories or chapters.  No, we don't know which people are reading the chapters, but we do know they get looked at quite a bit. 

So what is it that keeps people from reviewing these chapters?  Is it embarrassment?  Seriously, go look at almost any story on ff.net that is basically just a little sex scene, like the quickie challenge stories.  They rarely get many reviews.  I've many times posted a sex chapter in a larger story expecting to get some sort of response and then gotten.... basically none.  You can even see it on here in our first joint story, or even the second one, when we post some sexy time and only like two or three people are brave enough to step forward and admit not only that they read it, but that they liked it. 

We already know you read these scenes.  We know you all like them because the general trend according to traffic stats is that you actively seek them out specifically.  Come on, we're all (mostly) adults and we can admit that sometimes we feel like reading some sexy time.  So why are we so afraid to admit it?  Especially since this whole thing is anonymous!  A few of us here and there have met each other (and Push and I both think this is awesome, because we suspect without this blog not only would we have never met, but several of the rest of you who have met up) but for the most part, nobody knows you beyond a made up name and maybe a silly avatar, so go ahead and tell people that you thought that scene where Han and Leia did it in the shower was hot and you enjoyed it. 

For those of us who write, I'm pretty sure that the general consensus is that these are the most difficult scenes to write, and certainly the most difficult scenes to actually share with the "world."  I'm probably not the only one who winces when I click to post such scenes or stories.  I don't even know why, really.  It's just somehow more difficult to do than most other scenes.  I should really get over that because in my experience, you tend not to get much of a reaction at all.  Not good or bad, just nothing.  Or one or two comments, often from people you talk to all of the time anyway so they just feel obligated to review for you. 

So come on out and admit it that you don't review these scenes.  Do you feel weird admitting you like to read about sex?  Have you met someone who doesn't?  Or maybe you don't like the scenes and are just trying to refrain from saying anything at all because if you can't say anything nice, then you should just keep quiet. 

Aside from just the sex scenes, really, please take the time to review if you can.  If you enjoy reading fanfic, and you enjoyed reading a particular fanfic, let the person know.  If we post and nobody says anything, it starts to feel an awful lot like you're talking to yourself.  At which point, what's the point of publishing anyway?  And reviews make the author more excited about writing in general.  So if you enjoy something, review it!  And don't be afraid to review the sexy stuff either.  We already know you read it.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

"Afterglow" - A Missing Moments Piece by Claire1976

As a nice distraction from the crazy news, how about a new story?  It's been a while since we've had one of these.  This story takes place after Tatooine Ghost and after... well, you'll be able to tell pretty quickly what else it is after ;)  This is its first time published and this is Claire's first fanfic.  So please, if you like it, COMMENT.  I think some of you who don't write have no idea how much it means to hear even the smallest bit of praise or just mention that you enjoyed reading something.  Especially for a first time author.  Without further ado:


AFTERGLOW

"Hey, you asleep?" Han whispered into Leia's soft chestnut hair.

Her arm, which was draped across his bare chest, moved just ever so slightly. "No," she
replied, as she snuggled more closely against him, her head resting in the crook of his
arm. "I'm just languishing in the afterglow." She let out a small, but satisfied sigh and brushed her hand gently over the fine hairs that adorned his chest.

Their lovemaking a while earlier had begun tenderly, but had soon turned fiery and passionate, leaving both of them sweaty and exhausted. Their arms wrapped tightly around each other as their laboured breathing slowly settled, and the last waves of orgasm faded away.

Leia smiled contentedly to herself and thought how much more comfortable this new double bunk was compared to the cramped single one they had been sharing on the Falcon for the past four years. Yes, it had been cosy and it was nice to be able to cuddle up so close together. However, there was no denying the fact that it was rather awkward and far from ideal.  Leia had often thought that if she hadn't been so small, there's no way they would have tolerated it for so long. Upon their marriage six months earlier, Han had finally decided that it was about time they had a proper, full sized bed onboard, and she certainly had no complaints about this latest modification. For once, Han's incessant tinkering had definitely paid off.

"This isn't going to take us long, you know," Han said confidently.

Leia frowned, slightly confused as to what he was referring to. "What isn't going to take us long?"

"Making this baby."

He couldn't believe he had said those words. They were going to try for a baby. At last,  Leia had changed her mind on starting a family, and Han couldn't have been happier. He was surprised by how much he had wanted them to have a child. Part him, part her. A tiny person created by their love for each other. But despite his longing for a family of his own, he had respected Leia's wish never to have children for fear of them one day suffering the same dark fate that befell her father. Deep down he hadn't been happy,  but he loved this woman with every fibre of his being, and he had finally accepted that she wasn't likely to change her mind on the issue. But, he tried to remain hopeful that maybe one day, she just might.

"Oh, really?" Leia said, teasingly, as she lightly twirled a couple of his chest hairs around her fingers.

"I mean, we've had plenty of practice."

Leia laughed. "We certainly have."

"And we're pretty good at this, y'know."

"I can't argue with that," Leia said with a wistful smile.

Han thought for a second before feeling a familiar lopsided grin pulling at the corners of  his lips. "And, uh, you know what they say about us Corellian men?"

Leia pushed herself up on her elbow and looked into her husband's beaming face. "Oh, don't tell me. This is going to be about how amazingly virile they are and incredibly fertile, and..."

"Yeah, it's all true, but don't forget,"  Han said, cutting her off. "I am not just your average Corellian man."

The look on his face was so smug that anyone else would probably have slapped him. "Oh, there's absolutely nothing average about you," Leia said moving closer and softly kissing his rough cheek.

"And of course, the famous Solo luck, now that has to count for something, right? That has gotta be on my side."

"Um, excuse me, flyboy, but you're not doing this on your own, you know. I do believe it takes two of us to make a baby," Leia said in mock indignation. "In any case, I'm a Solo now, so it's only fair I get a bit of that luck too. Don't you think?"

"Sweetheart, I think you've already got it. Look at how you've been winning at holochess  lately. You know, if I didn't know any better, I'd say Chewie has been giving you secret lessons," Han replied with a smirk.

Leia shook her head. "I don't even like holochess." It was true, she didn't. She could never see the sense in it. But they had to find some way to occupy themselves on these long flights, and Leia had to admit, she was becoming rather good at it. She had put Chewie to shame on several occasions, frustrated Threepio beyond belief, and totally dumbfounded Han.

"Well, then it has to be luck," Han conceded. "Plus, you get to be ravaged by me every night. I'd say that makes you pretty damn lucky."

Leia laughed, gently punching his chest. "Scoundrel."

"And you wouldn't have it any other way."

Leia settled back down and cuddled into him, snaking her leg over the top of his, as Han kissed the top of her forehead. Then for a long moment there was peace, stillness; only the soft, comforting rumblings of the Falcon's engines, and the delicate, repetitive whirring of the cabin's cooling system breaking the silence. Leia closed her eyes, and floated away, breathing in the gloriously rich, musky scent of the Ithorian Mist aftershave still prominent on Han's skin.

"Hey, I'm sorry we didn't get your painting," Han said, stroking the smooth skin on her arm.

"It doesn't matter," Leia said, pulling him a little closer.

"It does matter. I know how much you wanted it. And I'd have done anything to make sure you got it."  He meant that. He would quite willingly go to the corners of the galaxy for this woman, do anything to make her happy. He couldn't help the feeling that somehow he had let her down.

"I know. But it wasn't to be, Han. I lost the painting, but I think I found something much more important."

"Like what?" Han enquired.

"Like knowing I can now have a baby. Our baby. And not be afraid anymore. I always wanted this, Han, deep down, it was always there.  But I knew it would never be an option, not with my family history. I couldn't afford to take that risk."

For a split second, Leia's mind drifted as she tried to picture holding a baby in her arms, a baby that she and Han had created. She imagined what it would feel like to love that baby unconditionally. The small child's beaming face was staring up at her, its dark eyes glistening, and the outpouring of emotion from the depths of her soul was overwhelming. She realised now, more than anything, just how much she wanted to be a mother.

"I guess we have your grandmother to thank for all this then. If you'd never found that diary, well....I'm just glad that she managed to knock some sense into you. No one is inherently evil, Leia."

She considered the truth in Han's words for a moment as she reached across for his hand and gave it a quick squeeze.

"He was just a normal little boy, Vader. That monster. Just a normal boy, with friends, like any other child and with a mother that loved him so much. She adored him, Han. It broke her heart to have to let him go like that. A child isn't born evil and I can see that now.  Every child follows their own path. We can guide them, yes, but in the end, only they can shape their own destiny."

"I love it when you get all philosophical," Han grinned.

"But it's true though, isn't it?"  She pushed herself up, leaned across his chest and Han knew instantly from the look in her beautiful dark eyes that she was deadly serious.  "I really want this baby, Han."

"Yeah, me too. I love you," he said with a soft, but heartfelt smile.

"I know. And I love you."

Leia leaned forward and tenderly ran her finger along the scar on his chin, before giving it a gentle kiss. "As soon as we get back to Coruscant I'm going to see about having my implant removed. And then we can really start working on it."

"That sounds good to me. But the first thing I've gotta do is get my other baby sorted out," Han said gesturing with one arm towards the outer wall of the Falcon. "She's beat up pretty bad. Gonna take some work."

"Han, don't worry about the reconditioning," Leia soothed. "I know the ship needs a lot of attention, but I don't want you spending every hour of the day working on it once we get back."

"Yeah, but..."

She placed a finger to his lips to stop him saying anything more. " I can pull some strings you know, and I'll get the very best New Republic mechanics to work on it. I'm going to need you around for a little while." Her voice took on a distinctly sultry tone and she whispered huskily into his ear. "Besides, once my implant is gone, you're going to have some serious reconditioning to do to me, now, aren't you?"

"Oh, I like the sound of that." Han smirked, somewhat distracted as Leia began nibbling seductively on his earlobe.

"Do you, now?" she said teasingly.

Leia slid on top of him and stared deeply into his warm hazel eyes, as Han gently ran both his hands up the smooth, delicate skin on her back, caressing every inch as he went. Even after four and a half years together, his touch was still electrifying to her and ignited something deep within her very core.  She leaned down and kissed him hungrily. He wrapped his arms around her shoulders, pulling her closer into him, devouring her mouth fiercely in return. When their lips finally parted, Leia could feel a familiar warmth lower down, a stirring beneath the top of her thighs, as Han's arousal gradually became apparent.

"I think maybe we should get in a bit more practice," Han whispered, a mischievous gleam sparkling in his eyes. "Just to be sure." He leaned forward and began trailing kisses slowly down her neck.

"You know, hotshot, I think you might be right."
 
Thanks again for sharing the wonderful story, Claire!