I then sat down and wrote, in fairly short order, two short stories. Both are surrounding Leia in her teen years before A New Hope would've taken place. I shared the stories with Zyra, as I always do, and she wondered what had inspired me to write about that era. I thought about it and it was definitely a picture of a young Carrie Fisher on the F%$# Yeah Carrie Fisher tumblr. I told Zyra that and she mused how funny it can be where we get our inspiration from.
Anyway, all of that was a lead-in so I can ask: Where do you (if you write or draw or what-have-you) find your inspiration? Or where is the strangest place that you have stumbled upon some inspiration?
I'll share first, my inspiration from this week. First the pic:
Then the stories. My initial inspiration was a story with Bail and Leia doing some training or something but when fingers went to keyboard, this came out (be warned, this has not been beta'd for grammar or anything else for that matter):
I Know
Alderaan – 4 BBY
“Yes, but how do you know?”
Leia shrugged. “I just…know.”
Like I know not to ask about my real parents. She never
understood it, but she had also never questioned it. It was an
innate ability she had always had, like the way Winter could remember
everything. It didn’t have to or couldn’t be explained. Her
mother seemed uneasy with her response. She excelled at making her
mother uneasy. Leia shuffled on her feet. “Can I go now?”
Her mother
studied her, like she was one of those puzzles Bail would bring back
from a business trip. Then her eyes softened and the edges of her
mouth ticked up in a smile. Leia’s insides flushed with warmth and
she took two steps and engulfed her mother in a tight hug, burying
her head against her chest. Breha immediately reciprocated, stroking
Leia’s hair and kissing her on the top of the head as she
whispered, “Oh, my precious daughter.”
The words were laced with a sorrow Leia
was all too familiar with but, yet again, had never understood. It’s
as if I have a terminal illness they’re not telling me about.
She had even discussed her suspicions with Winter, who had wholly
dismissed the idea as preposterous. Of course, Winter also thought
that those deportment lessons were fun.
“It’s not for me to understand, my
sweet Leia,” her mother said as she began to pull away. Leia
looked up to her mother, her chin lifted just a tad as she continued
to catch up to her petite mother’s height. Breha cupped Leia’s
chin in her hand, her eyes puddles of liquid warmth. “Always trust
your heart,” she said emphatically.
Leia swallowed. Bail may very well
have served as a more prominent figure in her life in the eyes of
many, but Leia admired and trusted her mother just as implicitly.
Breha took a breath and continued,
“Sometimes, just knowing…is more than enough.”
“I know, Mother,” she replied
seriously and then instantly smiled at the unintended drollness of
her response.
Breha’s eyes lit with humor and
mischief. Leia always enjoyed seeing this side of her royal mother.
“Yes,” she responded lightly as she released Leia’s chin.
“Just as I know you just can’t help yourself sometimes.”
“I was being serious,” Leia
returned in a half-argument, half-pout yet total playfulness. She’s
right, I can’t help it.
“Go,” her mother replied,
indicating the doorway as the older woman returned to her work.
“You’ll be late and your father will worry.”
“I love you, Mother,” Leia said.
Once again she felt a warmth blossom in her belly. Quiet, intimate
moments with Breha Organa were hard to come by, even for her own
daughter. For as much as politics and travel took Bail away from
her, obligations and unseen worries took her mother even further and
more often. She cherished unexpected times such as these where the
two of them were able to be simply a mother and daughter. Of course,
they happened so rarely, that it was an old habit of Leia’s to try
and drag them out as long as possible.
Breha stopped. “I love you, too,
Leia,” she replied warmly in silent understanding. But then her
eyes widened and she put on her no-more-arguments-about-this face and
added, “Now go.”
Leia beamed. Somehow her mother always
made her feel loved and understood even when it was very clear that
in some ways she didn’t understand her at all. I don’t know
what I would do without her, she thought as she turned on her
heel and scampered out the door.
****
Okay, I don't know how a story about Bail turned into that, but I kinda liked it anyway. Afterward, however, I had to set my fingers back on the keys until this came out (again, no beta...):
Leia's
Laugh
Alderaan – 2 BBY
Bail Organa watched as the shadows
stretched lazily against the rolling hills of the Organa Estate. He
held his arms out wide and yawned in imitation. His eyes drifted
back towards the sound of blaster fire over his right shoulder just
in time to see the intended target explode. The shot was good,
better than he probably could've done, but it was a little late.
“That was perfect,” he said, his stomach growling as his mind
wandered to what might be happening in the large kitchen up at the
main house.
“I hesitated,” his daughter
returned grumpily as she checked the charge on her blaster and
summoned the target droid for another round.
“C'mon, Leia, sweetheart. It's
getting late, you'll barely be able to see the targets.”
His daughter turned toward him swiftly,
that familiar determined look on her face. “And how many ambushes
have you heard about that happened in broad daylight?”
He raised his hands in surrender.
“Point. But I'm hungry. Even the best trained soldiers know when
to stop and eat.”
“One more round?” She asked, her
wide eyes absolutely impossible to say no to.
“One more round,” Bail conceded
with a proud smile.
Nearly every family in their circle of
friends trained their children in basic combat techniques and
self-defense. For most, the daughters proved difficult students at
best. Typical girls were more interested in learning how to braid
their hair extravagantly then how to handle an assortment of
blasters. But his Leia was different.
Driven would be the one word to
describe her. As he watched her fire off another round, Bail was
secretly grateful. He shuddered to think what his life would be like
if he had had to force this training onto his daughter every step of
the way. Because for his family, for his daughter in particular,
this wasn't just some silly precaution. For her it would be all too
real.
Everyone assumed it was due to his
rumored role in the Rebellion against the Empire that Bail trained
his daughter so. That is why when Leia opted for interrogation
training over a fancy party, no one raised an eyebrow. It provided
an excellent cover. Leia's talents could very well be tested someday
as the Rebellion gained momentum, he had to admit, but that was not
the test that Bail had spent his entire life preparing her for.
We'll take the girl. He had
said those words all those years ago. He could still hear his voice
perfectly as he spoke them, could smell the sterile air of the
hospital board room where they had sat, could feel the prickle
against the back of his neck as he realized that this was something
bigger than he had ever taken on before. Little did I know.
Being a father was bigger than Bail had
ever anticipated. He had no idea that love could be so boundless.
And the more he watched her grow, the more he saw that she was
prepared and ready and that the time was most assuredly drawing near,
the more he begged for time to stand still.
“Hellooo. Alderaan to base command?”
Bail blinked and found Leia staring at
him, her blasters packed away and the target droid ambling off toward
the back of the estate. “That was much better,” he sputtered
with an easy smile as he pulled Leia under the crux of his arm and
began to lead her toward the house.
“You're a terrible liar, Bail Organa. And I thought only really old, old men could fall asleep
standing up.”
“I wasn't sleeping. I was deep in
thought.”
“About me,” Leia stated.
Bail hugged her to him. He learned
long ago not to be surprised by her perceptiveness. “What else is
there?” He asked and she laughed as Bail shut his eyes briefly,
cherishing that glorious sound.
****
I have to say it felt really good to write after such a long time! Now feel free to comment (or not). No pressure here. None at all. :-)